TraumA AgaiN

my maths... test 2... i dowan to fail...
if i fail.. i will be slow a semester..
i dowan want that...
then no more u....

pls... dont giv me that...
i wan pass all~~~~~~~~~~

almost forgoten my blggy...
fun fun days yet boring yet lost purpose and chapters...

but gonna thank for fun and seek problems for lost

tml is math test.. and i study nothing yet... and i dont have book! wat i gona do man...

My TruE PurposE

in life, i've experience lots lots of things...
human life ways... mentally and physically...
and i think im lot lot more exprience than lots of people... (not to be selfish thinking)
well, i got a fren alvin, who can understand some of them.. i can c tat he knws well..

i realised...

i wanted to be a good person. On top of that, to be happy... and to finish my own task... to me, happiness comes in 1st... healthy comes in 2nd... and i will never make MONEY comes important.. of coz it is important, but its hard to explain that... most war were created bcoz of money nowadays... thats the most foolish thg i knw.. money? just like god? pui... if everyone can think like the way i do then less war will occur... just as said "EVERYONE THINKS OF CHANGING THE WORLD, BUT NO ONE THINKS OF CHANGING HIMSELF"
i believe ther is a lot of people who can think like me.. but just too little compared to majority...

the movie "xia dao siao" is quite a good lesson.. it teaches to glad that u r healthy than u r rich... if ppl can think like that and DO like that, im hpapy for them..
but still to me, happiness comes in 1st... i dont care what path i took, as long i took the path i wanted and im happy for it... even though its a tough path.. just happy.. of coz, need to care for health as well... doesnt mean that im totally happy untill i donht care my health.. health is important too... i always wanted to advice ppl to be happy than choosing to protect their health.. sounds like teaching bad things... but sometimes spending money for abit joy is worth than use it wisely... most of them doesnt understand what im saying and protests me...
well well, that makes me walk on my world, its nothing, coz my main line is also on my own world...

i've oso realise... i've ever been a very bad person, so i can be a good person.. and im not totally holy good person, but i wan to be... the 'naruto manga 495' : naruto and evil naruto... naruto says bcoz of his evil naruto, he is able to be that strong... same goes to me... bcoz im so evil before, thats why i am able to and wanted to help and be a good person...
and also, my family big disaster.. its a total broken family... im hated by everyone when im young, back then its very very pain for a small kid to feel.. and also, my father is gone... and he is a very bad and evil person... and my mother always mention that am i gonna be him? U GONNA BE LIKE UR FATHER? my grandparents also hated me and my brother alot... i do not understand that time as well..
but sooner i found out...
and i always hated that... the innocents, are very very pity... get punished for no reason... for example like me when im young, my grandparents sees me as the son of a evil guy, they treated me very bad... and im still very young to handle things myself... but i've endure all these years, now they dont have the power to step on my head, but i bliv they got that chip buried in their mind somewher and ready to burst once i lost my temper... im just like naruto... thats y i admire naruto very much...

i hope, when i grow up... i will be a good man who wont be greed of money... and to be a father who loves their children more than a mother does... and help those who need help.. and also try the best to forgive and help them instead... and lastly, complete my secret task deep in my heart...
God gave me a hard and challenging task, bcoz there are problems, tats y i seek for answer... greater power holds greater responsibility... and greaters power breeds greater fear and hatred... it is a meaningful journey...

and i wont hurt the innocent like everyone do, i will react in my own way, and i wont react according to the questioner...
i dont have a father's love, doesnt mean that i will not give my future child love... and i am very different from eveyrone in the world, thats y im treated badly and different.. and thats y im helping those people who are different as well... they hav great nightmares of problem, and its my job to helm them, even though my suffers billion tons greater than them, but im the only one who can answer them, i dont expect some one to help me like i help those people, it is bcoz ther is no1 who were tooooooo different than me...
i will always remember my way> "MY LINE IS ALWAYS GUIDED WITH WISDOM" "AND STRENGH OF RIGHTEOUSNESS"
THERES NO SUCH THING AS 'RIGHT' OR 'WRONG' , it is only the matter of 'GOOD' OR 'BAD'
and i wander, could i be the person who can create things that is RIGHT? if i owns my world...

GOD, if you grant me powers to create miracles, what can this world be? i hardly wander, only fantasy flows out from my dream and wander for me...

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
tml test IT and i dono how to do >.<

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
tml test IT and i dono how to do >.<

Yesterday kinda disapointed a little, but its nothing..
today disapointed and think something too much~
lol, and my emotions goes with the music...
but its nothing actually...
saw thomas link sharing in his profile..
was amazed by the words..
even though its totally wrong to do that...
but the phrases i lik it... would i able to do that ? @_@

Freaks out of ghost tales

When can i had a settled down feeling?

HumaN

LonG WaY To SaY ThiS
abt holy...
psychology...
and the reasons of war...

how to teach ppl? and i didnt even got an image to teach ppl..?
how to even explain when they doesdnt wanted to hear...
how to let them know the real value of life?

i can only start with some peoples...
even though its just a little, but this world of cases like this...
our hands are tied...

Damai Trip

had a trip wif buddies, and this time it is all BOYZ~
rock, we had freedom from girls... play lik a boy...
and those releases our stress alot...
my inno havn do... tiam... gonna qiong now...
and also the question...

why does some people's love and frens were so perpendicular?
they intesects each other and goes off their own way... how to join them up?

Backache doin C&C stupid things... Was forced by own will to stay until this late..... Zz.zz.z.z.z.zzz...z.z.z.z.z.zzzzz...... blur blur, dozing off any sec.... Zzzzzzzz

SalT

Today alot salt! haha!! wakakakaka
guitar guitar
learn instrument learn instrument
nugget nugget
hpcredit hpcredit
not gonna be home not gonna be home
big and small (in other words)
ate salt in mcd as well...

tml gonna up to damai?
watchi say?
yeah~

Tiring Yet Exciting

Is ThaT YouR FeelinG ?

EhEhEhEhE

Its gettinG funny....
laughing now, typing the way...

problems arround me really happen step by step... doesnt comes in all at once... i really thanked things happen step by step...
HAHA....... 1by1, 1by1, really makes things longer... makes my story longer.... and its good to let me face them 1by1...
but the prob is, no peace at all D:
all the time got prob, but still good, 1by1...
after these 2 things over,
WHOS NEXT? LOL

oh ya, forgot i got a task also, when should i make my move?

WhaT NoW ?

KindA BorinG YesterdaY,
FelT DisapointeD, BuT I ThinK I AlsO ThinK ToO MucH
AnD AlsO, FurtheR FeelinG
AlwayS HopE To PocesS ThE PoweR Of SharingaN
To ReaD OtherS MinD, WhaT Do TheY FeeL ?
ArE We ThaT ClosE? Or It WasN ThE AlL timE?
GosH, I NeeD An AnsweR Of ThiS
If NoT, GonnA SeeK FoR It

FeelinG GettinG FurtheR & FurtheR FroM YoU... Is It JusT My ImaginatioNs Or It Is AlwayS LikE ThiS ?

At LeasT

at least.....
problems come 1by1 again and again... luckily not all at once...
i gotta work hard yet still enjoy lik shiat.... design i not simple as i think lol?
I gotta feeling we r falling apart, but slightly now... how to stop it? Gonna sxxxd mxxe txxe wxxh u? Im gxxxxxg jxxxxxs of axxxn oso...

writting words in "xxxx" form, coz i think this blog is not private anymor... X_X

RocK & ShiT

Step by step in progress~ Y dont i just admit?
And sth wrg with these ppl, they think me other way oredi...
hah, fine... even though they act normal...
is it time? i think no.... just a little bit longer X)

Boom Boom Pow~

Fine

goes to the beach, its boring.... so less ppl go...
go home.. received an email from HON,
retailing is coming soon... on the mid of may...
then we gonna purchase an account?
i think so, i still think i rather spend that money... just once for all..
& played a match, even match battle till last i pawn them... still the top killer and least death^^
tryin to enjoy while we can b4 open beta has became online...
no fair.... close beta for so mny years, yet open beta for few months nia... open beta should be for more years~~

bah, no news for tonight steamboat dinner with class..
rather stay home, but go accompany with michele and others in other steamboat @@
then go for movie... so many pigs in spring.... the only available movie is 12.45, well i can, but some cannot... still oso veli tiring~ had drink in issabella cafe.. nice frenship chit-chating ther...

Gonna split out someday as well. No use resisiting.
Hah, i oredi knw they knw, my psychology thinking skills were not bad there...