A dinner with BrotherS... For Phang's grandma 85 yearold b'day... From i see, wah, MrsLeong is right... Chinese is rude in restaurant... Talk the loudest.. Huhu, but thats stress releasing though...

GERMANY - ENGLAND
4 - 1

LOL, haha Melvin lose his bet...
haizz, always kena blaf by that girl LOL

i cannot do this anymore, God really wants me to keep to myself...
felt guilty... what i done may not be wrong, but its bad for others...
lost something, and lost someone's precious as well...
i need to do something about this... cant let bad stuff happen bcoz of me...
gosh, nowadays doing anything can be dangerous...

做人难
人难做
难做人

My IT is done. Felt relief... Assignments is done done done... Nid to study english and maths , and c&c a little then no prob for final exam... And inno is the only subject i need to study the most.... But today, my teacher gave us secretly, the questions and slides for last exam, she said 90% probably will be these... Thankful to have her as our teacher..

It seems the stress is over...
but something still borders me...
juz kinda felt that sem2 is not gonna be fun anymore...
getting cold and cold...

BrotherS

Last night, having a great time with brothers....
BBQ outside of my garden...
rock the night~
cool~
feel wana hang arround with them more and more...
i miss those times....
and the food are delicious~
splendid~
well, coz i tried king size, for once in my life...
that make me blur and sleepy...
well, jus tired then...
played piano clumsily...
hahaz...
i hope on sunday i will join them on anoher BBQ...

juz go to sch to do IT... well derek is not helping much, only helping wenjing... about to call michele to go sing with us but she didnt reply my msg... jus wwat happen? she dont talk to me, and dont msg me.. is something going on? seems like she hates me... but i dont remember anything in making her upset or angry, its just she is hiding something about me... haizz, sad... derek told me he wans to sing few days ago, but i need to finish my english essay, so i told him to be on saturday...

gonna rest my eyes from contact lens, infection gonna come soon...

JusT AnotheR DaY

glad to be approve by yayasan... went to my aunt Mary's place to have her sign as a witness... having talk on nickholas comfirmation stuff and stephanie's violin lessons, think of that im having 1 soon, same lecturer... i hope i can catch up her FAST! ee hee hee...
and my feelings trigger me again, to see a complete family, "un.chris an.mary nick step" together, talk talk... family talk.. talk loud talk soft...complain this and saying bad habits of kids... i.....

i wan a family....

i want a complete family....

a father

a mother

siblings doesnt matter but i got a brother....

a normal father mother brother....

from young till now....

i am happy?!

i felt happy for them, but why i dont have a real love form a family? why i dont have a parent that i can really really really count on, or to trust on? why things hav to be done and to be responsibled alone? and why experiences need to be experienced ownself and thinked by myself?

is it God? you gave me this task? i understand so much, and gone through so much sufferings? my experience need to be troubled and gained from my family instead from other people? why sacrifice my family for the sake of my learning? its a valuable lesson though, but fate decided might be sad for them?

thats y i always thought, people say: ""WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME???"" the phrase, and if it is happenned to someone else, he/she would say the same phrase... so no matter what, this happening will be to somebody... so y dont i take it? for not letting them suffer... well, if that is so... God, let me take as much sufferings as possible to help these poor people from suffering, they dont know what to do? they might lost their mind, and i rather see myself suffer than seeing all these people suffering...

Refering to these lyrics, the mankind were suffering (good music :-)
1. Promised Land (FF7 AC) Latin Translate
2. Deliver Us (Prince Of Egypt)

shocking funny

i tot u had a lover.. HAHA

well, abit sorrow now... but i think i must not give up, that is my way right?

Im not a playboy... i've seen one then thers no other target... and today don know why i think fengsui not so good... feel very bad at sch... everything seems normal, but jus dont feel normal, jessie treats me lik im not arround... actually, i also knw she is not really that type to suit me for a very close fren... lik my fren brandon, just regreted for some frens we knew long ago, even a gang b4..

still need to be glad for what i had, after all i've known by myself and the movie SHREK 4EVER, i think that should not make me down... today, im found one one of my bad habit, and i try to change it, but even the answer is not satisfactory to it, but at least i hav to... World isnt fair, is it? Well God, u know the world is not fair, but doesnt mean that we can use this as an excuse to treat ppl unfair, we should try to make the world as fair as we can right?

bored little holiday~ ;(