NO WSJ THIS WEEK AGAIN... I WAN C NARUTO!! zzzzzz
Today seems lighter~
Feng Shui do tell the truth eh?

Hah... today go sing K for C&C class cancelled.. disappointed for my stupid articles...

Well, my sky is vast today~

FallinG YoU ?

another happy day 8 sch... no C&C class tis week... hanging arround... the english article is so stress... gosh, still hav time blogging here... happy to be together... glad it... but our activity kinda abit boring... play cards fool them arround... @.@ but still, i must still cherish wat i hav now... tis is wat God gave me, & it is considered a happy n good life now, although challenging... swim at nite at jessie's place... happy happy limteh at 101... wondering 2ml's activity... gosh that michele wan me to cut hair.... hope they wont persuade me... and we go sing K~!
wat can i say? YEAH~

and i realised today... falling you? it seems already, but when i think about it.. it really gets deep...
wat can i say again? IM GETTING BLIND ;)

A BlanK SpacE In A SentencE

Mising you makes my day abit wierd... i gotta admit it... just dont know why...
Psychology spreads~

FrienDs 2

frens is not a simple word. its very complicated... and it is deep and feelingfull as well as 'love'.. Love is also part of Frens..
different kind of ppl hav different kind of relationship of frenz... its just how we manipulate them when we mixing each other..
jessie, u may not see this.. but i guarentee u today its just a prank.. even though its just a prank, but we do feel abit bitter.. and i knw both sides are misunderstooding... it is always helpless when cases like this, even they knwon, but still act strong to fight until 1side gives up.. but luckily we are not serious case... and also u and we ppl just saying things behind ea other.. yes i can read ur ppls mind.. ur mind tells me that i have other frens so im doesnt need u ppl more and more... yes indeed u ppl will have that feeling, even on the other side will also have.. but its wrong & correct. u r correct that im starting no need u ppl, its naturally bcoz im join gangs that will still last longer in future and same class after all.. but... i still always wanted to keep in touch with u ppl... i dont wanted to lose you... i bliv alvin and others wont had that REALLY wicked thinking..
when u send us about that g9 msg and u misses us when u gone to ur trip, other may think that u r just emo or in good mood etc... and u also mayb think others think you the same way, but of coz u will still send to at least show ur feeling... i understand what u r thinking.. u must have seen something triggers you thoughts about frens, so u would suddenly feel wanted to appreciate yr current frens now... i had those feelings b4 lots lots of time, now i understand, so im also TRYING THE HELL BEST to have the best relationship wif everyone... im glad u express it...

And, God must have gave u a task/experience.. on the next day these things happened.. haha luckily its just prank... although alvin & damien pranked abit too rough, i can see yr reaction is soo sensitive and fast... & u endured ur tears better than i do... gosh, how can i be a man.. they even recorded video... if u watched the video, i think u would hav cry more and more.. u only get rejected calls and see those unhappy face(act) from them, and cry like 'ain shit' , i gotta say: i like you... u have strong & sensitive sense... better feelings towards you from everyone now... trust me...

i heard yr probs wif parents... yeah yeah lots of us had that nowadays too... gone out too often... i knw everybody can suppress their parent probs when they are wif their frens... but for u, in the meantime, both sides X_X

hard for you... it maybe ok for a man to taste this... but for girls lik u who endured & reacted like this... im very very impressed..
from my psychological look to you, i always knw u are a good girl even though ur mind has been drag to the lowest to kill or murder.. but u are always back to the goodside, u can be save back to the goodside easily... so afterall i can say u r a good girl... but, u r better than that... wow this reaction... what i expect you attitude is correct, but in a ratio of limit i thought is 10... but u shown out 15... higher than my expectation..

even like me.. i gotta say im a man who cries.. And i dono whether i can endure from crying when im sentimentalled... and i wanted to say: "i love you" , & especially to all my frens... but i cant even say or type it out... its not a "girlfren loving"... its more like a "family loving"... just wanted to show appreciation... coz im experienced like you now... but its crazy & wierd to express the word "i love you" , even though u explained to them, they may hav a yeee feel even though they understood... so the best chance is when something happened... and i got this chance to say... but i dont think u ppl would read my blog XD... its quiet here... lik it~

SmoKe

gosh 2day i finally smoked.. its awful... 25/04/10
now my mouth full of the smell.. yucks... but i experienced life already... uek uek....

happy 2c u 2day... wondering wat u r thinking...

Buuuuuuuuuuuuuu

2day listen to lion king musics..... feeel so song, and downloaded them at last...
wake up in the morning when my mom hammered the door... wake me up to look doctor... for my poor eyes... go get my commision but havnt got it... no time for dacing today and gotta go cut hair... frenz r buzy so postpond cut hair D:
brin a fren to out, and i felt helpfull @.@
haivng a boring dinner wif big family... dozed off after dinner...
wake up in the night to go home...
bath and frenz call me for limteh...
chitchat wif my frenz and fell better...
and bcoz of that i felt energized...
its 1.16 now... & my bro is still hon ing...
i gonna go play piano...
g9, sorry neighbours for the noisiness... but i wana play them... juz 10minutes :)
wat can i say today? weee...

FuNs 2

going sch for english, but not in formal but luckily lots of ppl didnt formal as well.. XD going to open air and chitchat and say happy b'day to stephen.. i gave him my sushi... and alvin gave him 2 packets of cigarette and 1 lighter... he looks happy... glad to c it... & go 2mcd for lunch... but i didnt ate anything... XD
and another IT class in lecturer theatre... a waste of time... and we goes to the library... ahmadou joined in and he was not pleased by others... lolol.. i skipped my inno... jessie and stephy put me water... >.< well fine... we goes to the spring for K~

5 jugs 2 sparkling juice and tidbits~ rock in the room... damien and nata owns... they got their pretty voices... im kinda jealous... feel like doing something to my throat... >< all the fun was there... but something borders my mind... we looks missing somebody...

and we went to MCD at airport and tapao bcoz they r closing... and went to HO SAY LIAO and eat and chit chatter... i gotta say its an exhausting day.... we had fun alot... and i drove damien's car back home... he's collapsing, but i think he is suppressing his falls... good man buddy..

its 3:25am 24/04 now... well its late... AND TODAY IM SHIVERING LIKE HELL..
Im missing you alot and alot... things is gonna get obvious soon... watcha say?

WOO

2day so nervous and happy...

talk 2 denise, n she say me and alvina blaablaablaa... i wish to 4get this all... i wan a happy life...

Wear formal in the morning... but my pants so big and sux... that ruined my image... lol go parking with michele again lol... well everyone look matured... i just got a feeling like last year... we've grown up actually, is that we didnt realise it, and we wishes to be still like a child... this is what we teenage love...

so nervous and wana be the last to present, but after alvins, everyone wan "qiang" to be 1st lol... felt better after presentation, thinking of going sushi king... XD walk with damien... others dn bliv... then god, my eyes red red red pain pain pain.... wawa T_T , missed the fun alot... but still trying to enjoy as possible...

go bac to sch and go library draw draw.... and met jessie's gang and booked a room... after lots of them left, we took prison photos.... haha nata no guts no take... well funny though... but today we took bunch of photos....

inno n change: go in the room found a desktop with dota match list.. LOL DOTA TIME! copy copy copy paste paste paste...
not only that, its 1v2.... Me(Faceless Void) VS (Bane Elemental)+(Dwarften Sniper) and its super super super hard.... bane can disable me and sniper HAMBALA everything... but i manage to be the ultimate of the game... the game hasnt end but both of them left... time to go home...

After bath and eat then go bac to sch for IT's web design... with nata and damien, i ask michele to join too.. then go to jessie's condor.... alvin, even chu song thomas ther oso.. and mr.round round alex... after that jessie and alex go home and we go limteh~ lim lim lim...
had a nice chat to everyone... especially Michele, feel like closer to her now...

Go home back to facebook again, chat chat with gang mei... finally realise, the 2person i ever known is one... chia hui = qi qi
LOL, funny...

G9
SleeP TighT
SweeT DreaMs

Today Thomas is dumb, he is too rich to gamble money.. For paying to mow Ervines head off! lol, shocked...
And when i reach home i rush my accesment and gona have presentation! Wawa T_T
this morning got a big big bettle inside my shoes and i didnt realise it... so yuck when i stepped it @@

ScH LifE

sch life isnt simple as i thought...
innovation and change stress me out, learned for nothing, cheat at last.
had probs in time management as well..

well, for frenz...
i hope we get along well each other very much.. in every different gangs...
hope... to make ourselves happy everytime...
and become a piece of great memory... from what i can see... but i hope bad things wont happen same again and again...

hmm, how should i do with my hair? is it really that sux?

My HappY Is RaginG Up

I getting started to forget the bad things happening...
things really get going well with jessie... she's a nice girl, who likes to help... i really feel good helping...
today i go sch havin boring english class then go spring with frens, and 2 of them bullshit catholic... lol, abit pissed, but i can bear with it... and we took photos again, funny ones.... HAHA
well the fun thing is about my context and culture subject... we do lots of aerobic exercise with a new visitor ... with our shoes off, some even hot poses... lol, and anuar gave us an activity of my own privacy LOL.. i was shocked... Meditation... Well, i dont dare express what i can feel, but even though its too powerful, and i cant express in words, or mayb i can do it in animation... cant bliv tis world is still connected to my dreams... it is always connected... even though its far though... and my eyes getting iching and redness.. then i took them off, i cant stand them anymor >< , n tml im nt wearing to sch... Wawa T_T with my stupid glasses again... but nvm.. for the sake of my eyes, i must control...
was about to go out limteh with aaron, but i told him i just wake up and he keep say nonid le, nonid rush lol... well im ok, but its ok, lets go tmolo...
g9 buddies

SidE TragedY

the main problem is almost like settled, but the side one... oh no.... my sis crush me with everything she got... she dont give up a single talk, my moral values, even though she is speechless, but thers more excuses to split.... totally take controlled by the devil...
gosh, how am i going to help these ppl... and tis 1 is a strong one, covered by evil... but i dont giv up and keep........... ends nothing but further relationship....
The prayer: forgive us for our sins, as we forgive those who sins against us..
i make sins alot before, then im trying to be good... then i start to forgive ppl who sins against me, and i even start helping and teaching ppl... then now, the problem is advising till the fullest still no words pierce through her ears and mind...
i think i've gone through steps by steps, and im still middle of the journey... face problem and settle it, then the problem update then i nid to analyse again and settle it, then again and again... i really nid to experience all types of cases...

i've got an idea just when i type these... its from a game like warcraft...
if my moral values were so called normal attacks, and their ears and mind are light armor.. means that my dmg deals nothing, so i nid to use pierce attack or chaos atk to get in...
is that it?
so, im not going to use moral values, but to soften their heart? or other ways to please...
thats the way to think, come on BenjamiN, think! Remember, your line is always guided with "wisdom"... And we cant see things straightly, we nid to see them in different directions...

God, do i still able to get my sis back?

Tragedy

that girls problem is getting big... affectting innocents... didnt expect my sis gets into trouble as well... i've tried to say something nice, but at least it helped abit... but still a prob.... girl fight girl, gosh, i've seen videos if girls fighting thesedays... the victim is really kolian later.... hope i can interfere to stop... and i wana request a meeting to say things clearly, and if they dare... so they wont pass on msges 1on1.. so make things complicated, so why dont everyone sat down and talk, so no1 hides...? and i lost a sis as well.. im really really really sad about tis incident happen... my eyes feels lik moisting... wana burst into tears... why my lord? why man cant show their tears? it make me feel more sentimental when i saw the video i made for my sis... i even wan to compose a song for them... but things doesnt work well...

now uniting is aside of the problem, bt still uniting is a problem as well... so, i wana get those pointless war over and continue my mission~

its really a trauma... but at least i did go for swimming with brandon and "kong"? at least they cool me down once in a while... jessie too... she did learn something from my words...

Bored

whole day at home... on pc, facebook no notifications, playing 1match of hon (win ^^), watching anime... thinking of going back to school... and i my mom forgot go church... its easter~
wellwell, at least its fun about using the movie maker.... and i use blender to animate my name title... but it cant be used for the video maker Wawa T_T, BongAndrew i need your Vegas Pro 9.0! and i oso need Photoshop cs4 and teach me how to use them >.<

Well my lord, i wish to hav more funs with frens, and i really start appreciating them now.... and even trying to unite them... especially snaping our good moments with phone cameras, then i will use them 2 make touching videos... and also to kept for futures flash back~

FuNs

4/2
having fun in school... jessie ur laksa is splendid~
its abit expensive but i think its still worth it... big bowl @.@
The New Beginning
Watching dances, akidos, n wushu! Yo chen! didnt expect to see u here brother! so happy 2cya~ And oso decided to join dance club! woohoo... dap... dap... da.. daaa....
The real fun is taking photos!
With jessie Derek Alvina Denise, especially my 2 sisters! they both treat me as a family, and... im really touched... well, i cant burst out my sentimental feelings, im a man... but, i always know im more sensitive than a girl.. but i hav to bear with it... thx sis...

i've decided to compose a song for you.. Sisters~ my only sisters ever in my life~

4/3
Good friday...

this is wat i prayed:

My Lord, you sacrifice your very own child Jesus Christ to save us.. Today is the day he died on the cross.. And because of his sacrifice.. Especially of the orphans, We were able to see the smiles return to their faces again.. Im very honored to be the son of yr right hand... This is what shall we thank for.. Amen ~ †

Having dinner at my grandparents place, and they enjoy that mee so much but i really wan to vomit X_X
Then my cousins are going for a movie but SORRY! i got frens to acompany on! its kinda rare to come out with u guys.. Aaron, Phang... n oso Melvin... but im still glad we are still in touch.. hope we keep it up.. i know that we are brothers! I kinda miss u brothers alot these days.. A, P, M, C

What a day~
Things getting fun... right? my lord