Why?

This feels so shit and unlife
thers is alot of things i wana say but i cant...
i wanted but i failed...
u make use of me...
im just nothing...
now we r lik ntg...
and u gave others wat i wanted...
and u nvr gave me...
for few months i've waited,
but in the others they get in a week...
u see i wanted to be angry and still need to be calm and please to u...
u knw how my head can burst?
u knw how unfair u've been?
and my feeling is not to be played like that...
i have deep feelings, so do u knw how hurt if u play me?

dont u have real feelings? being hurt is nice feel? u r crazy...