Didnt sleep whole night... nt tired dono y...
play piano from 4-5somethn
play a match of hon, and mom came in my room
take a walk in the garden...
feels good... the cool breeze in the morning..
bird, crickets and hoppers singing...
and old folks ther too
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
7 Sins Of Desire
Humans always thought that they are the saddest in the world, therefore, they are the lowest being of the world...
Arrogance
Sadness
Malice
Jealousy
Greed
Despair
and Hatred
Arrogance
Sadness
Malice
Jealousy
Greed
Despair
and Hatred
Saturday, December 25, 2010
DrunK
this time im drunk...
kept drinking...
head getting dizzy...
walk like snake...
fren carry my arm...
felt uncomfortable of the feeling, but happy for frens who care for me...
to the car...
back home...
no wash hair, but change clothes and off contacts...
BOOM~ sleep...
its so hard to sleep... my head have a massive pressure...
keep changing posture, about to sleep but cant...
wandering at my frens who helped me, i felt so thankful...
wandering whether i'll forget these tomorrow...
but not... im awake 4 hours later, conciousness regain, but strength only abt 70%... i rmb everything happen... so it seems im not totally drunk huh? i felt that too...
im just too dizzy...
ohya, i heard everything u guys said :) coz im still myself all time... not even alcohol can twist my mind... i bet even drugs!
kept drinking...
head getting dizzy...
walk like snake...
fren carry my arm...
felt uncomfortable of the feeling, but happy for frens who care for me...
to the car...
back home...
no wash hair, but change clothes and off contacts...
BOOM~ sleep...
its so hard to sleep... my head have a massive pressure...
keep changing posture, about to sleep but cant...
wandering at my frens who helped me, i felt so thankful...
wandering whether i'll forget these tomorrow...
but not... im awake 4 hours later, conciousness regain, but strength only abt 70%... i rmb everything happen... so it seems im not totally drunk huh? i felt that too...
im just too dizzy...
ohya, i heard everything u guys said :) coz im still myself all time... not even alcohol can twist my mind... i bet even drugs!
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Move On Or Stay?
No one will disappear from my world... Nor Bad or Good, it is always an experience and i brought all the way in life... Im not "crying over split milk" or "move on and leave the past behind". Im both... I wont actually delete someone from my mind, even though i forgotten them, recalls and flashbacks are always there for me...
Move on your journey as you bring all your past with you... Therefore, u will find the answer that u've been seeking..
Move on your journey as you bring all your past with you... Therefore, u will find the answer that u've been seeking..
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
GaminG ModE
go out and hav fun...
stay at home play game... straight days....
wanna die liao...
and that day at ron's house exercise just few parts nia, whole body pain till now...
push up and roll the thing at floor nia...
shoulder muscle, chest muscle, back muscle, and stomach muscle soooo pain.... this is the 3rd day... cant stretch my arm or chest pain, can sit up from bed or else stomach pain... damm... it's a long goodness time i've not been exersizing... but the days were before i am an active one...
who cares? :)
play game.... yamcha~~~
i nid to go to gym soon = =
stay at home play game... straight days....
wanna die liao...
and that day at ron's house exercise just few parts nia, whole body pain till now...
push up and roll the thing at floor nia...
shoulder muscle, chest muscle, back muscle, and stomach muscle soooo pain.... this is the 3rd day... cant stretch my arm or chest pain, can sit up from bed or else stomach pain... damm... it's a long goodness time i've not been exersizing... but the days were before i am an active one...
who cares? :)
play game.... yamcha~~~
i nid to go to gym soon = =
Friday, December 10, 2010
Alvis Kong
my my... What do we have here?
a boy suicidED...
a young man suicidED...
how should i put in 1st?
You becamed famous... Look at the numbers of post in yr profile, hundreds and thousands... At least many people draws to yr attention...
Be glad, everyone is wishing you to rest in peace...
And im respect you as a man who standby his words... Although you make a really FOOL's choice... And yet, check gossips in facebook... All people were sad and sorry for you, but they said you are stupid... Stupid? yes...
Gossips
y suicide?
thers alot of path we can take, we dont have to choose this path...
his girlfren will cry and say y u r so stupid...
kolien, he really stupid...
aiyo... so engtao, sayang leh die ki...
y make so stupid things? hope u RIP and dont make harsh choice in yr next life...
you dont know wat is love, dont you?
Everyone, is thinking you made the wrong choice... I pity you that they dont understand a thing and yr feelings...
It's very common to see guys die for girls, but never girls for guys... And this modern age, most youngsters like us dont know what is love is...
Boy & Girl frens, breakup in a month... or a year... a week... or even days... they dont know what is love?
even me, myself, i dont know what love is...
to me, love holds a powerful relationship... to love a girlfren for a lifetime... A girlfren, is not for months, years or etc. but it's a term of 'wife' before getting married... What is Love? And i wonder did you have that same way of thinking?
I kinda think so, if not you wouldn have died for her...
Everyone can say this too, "FOREVER LOVE" , but look at them, bullshits only... facebook pro talk...
You believe in "true love", dont you? Thats what im believing as well, but society says impossible to me... But you, proved them for me... And i know there's nothing else to prove but to die for... Im really impressed, u standby yr own words, honor and loyalty... And you are 1 of the true hero...
But i still think u made the wrong choice, it is never for you to die like that... But if that's what you think is your destiny, then u made no wrong choice... But i dont think it's destiny, it's an unacceptable feeling... Therefore, u cant really rest in peace... In life, we have to let go everything before we go... And suicide is considered killing as well... In Afterlife, you wont be in heaven...
But note this, look at everyone's crying, they are effing to let you rest in peace... Praying for you...
Good luck on the judgmentday~
And my word , R.I.P.
a boy suicidED...
a young man suicidED...
how should i put in 1st?
You becamed famous... Look at the numbers of post in yr profile, hundreds and thousands... At least many people draws to yr attention...
Be glad, everyone is wishing you to rest in peace...
And im respect you as a man who standby his words... Although you make a really FOOL's choice... And yet, check gossips in facebook... All people were sad and sorry for you, but they said you are stupid... Stupid? yes...
Gossips
y suicide?
thers alot of path we can take, we dont have to choose this path...
his girlfren will cry and say y u r so stupid...
kolien, he really stupid...
aiyo... so engtao, sayang leh die ki...
y make so stupid things? hope u RIP and dont make harsh choice in yr next life...
you dont know wat is love, dont you?
Everyone, is thinking you made the wrong choice... I pity you that they dont understand a thing and yr feelings...
It's very common to see guys die for girls, but never girls for guys... And this modern age, most youngsters like us dont know what is love is...
Boy & Girl frens, breakup in a month... or a year... a week... or even days... they dont know what is love?
even me, myself, i dont know what love is...
to me, love holds a powerful relationship... to love a girlfren for a lifetime... A girlfren, is not for months, years or etc. but it's a term of 'wife' before getting married... What is Love? And i wonder did you have that same way of thinking?
I kinda think so, if not you wouldn have died for her...
Everyone can say this too, "FOREVER LOVE" , but look at them, bullshits only... facebook pro talk...
You believe in "true love", dont you? Thats what im believing as well, but society says impossible to me... But you, proved them for me... And i know there's nothing else to prove but to die for... Im really impressed, u standby yr own words, honor and loyalty... And you are 1 of the true hero...
But i still think u made the wrong choice, it is never for you to die like that... But if that's what you think is your destiny, then u made no wrong choice... But i dont think it's destiny, it's an unacceptable feeling... Therefore, u cant really rest in peace... In life, we have to let go everything before we go... And suicide is considered killing as well... In Afterlife, you wont be in heaven...
But note this, look at everyone's crying, they are effing to let you rest in peace... Praying for you...
Good luck on the judgmentday~
And my word , R.I.P.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
All I Ask Of You
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime...
Let me lead you from your solitude...
Say you want me with you, here beside you,
Anywhere you go, let me go too,
Love, that's all I ask of you.
Let me lead you from your solitude...
Say you want me with you, here beside you,
Anywhere you go, let me go too,
Love, that's all I ask of you.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
I SmeLL MusiC In ThE AiR
Oh yeah~ music music~
classic! rock!
piano!
violin!
guitar!
elec violin!
elec guitar!
elec bass!
vocal!! LOL
and i wan learn drum too! and ukulele too! any woodwind instrument oso !
crazy in music
classic! rock!
piano!
violin!
guitar!
elec violin!
elec guitar!
elec bass!
vocal!! LOL
and i wan learn drum too! and ukulele too! any woodwind instrument oso !
crazy in music
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Ass-ssignments....
freakin finishing alot... not much to worry eccept english... and a final test for it too...
readying for BBQ with brothers again... just now eating maggiemee at 7eleven, it seems so cheap but haha, feels good... + a bottle of milk too...
and yeah, lets hon tml night, hope my brother is not home tml nite so line wont be so lag...
just now.... we chat about harry potter and stuff... when im on the way home, i realised something... Harry Potter is 1 of my fav movies in life-time... And im always waiting for every movie everytime... this year, movie7 part1... even though its very very interesting, its kinda wierd, i not into it yet, same feeling goes to christmas... im not in the mood of christmas yet, but spring oredi got xmas tree... but coz of u, my dear fren... u bring my mood back to line...
if it wasnt you keep talking to me about harry potter, it wont be so exciting... harry potter is really an interesting movie, touching, adventure, romantic, mostly its the storyline very good, just like naruto... and daniel redcliff always give me the main character's expression... If he shouts, i feel like im angry too... If he crys, i feel like crying too... But he's getting ugly XD... Great actor~
freakin finishing alot... not much to worry eccept english... and a final test for it too...
readying for BBQ with brothers again... just now eating maggiemee at 7eleven, it seems so cheap but haha, feels good... + a bottle of milk too...
and yeah, lets hon tml night, hope my brother is not home tml nite so line wont be so lag...
just now.... we chat about harry potter and stuff... when im on the way home, i realised something... Harry Potter is 1 of my fav movies in life-time... And im always waiting for every movie everytime... this year, movie7 part1... even though its very very interesting, its kinda wierd, i not into it yet, same feeling goes to christmas... im not in the mood of christmas yet, but spring oredi got xmas tree... but coz of u, my dear fren... u bring my mood back to line...
if it wasnt you keep talking to me about harry potter, it wont be so exciting... harry potter is really an interesting movie, touching, adventure, romantic, mostly its the storyline very good, just like naruto... and daniel redcliff always give me the main character's expression... If he shouts, i feel like im angry too... If he crys, i feel like crying too... But he's getting ugly XD... Great actor~
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Friday, November 19, 2010
LaW
I dont understand ppl nowadays...
Always think they are the right, and the one who only hurt, and the only 1 who thinks...
When comes to anything, they show nothing, but great talkings... And they think they are the only one who hurt and giving reasonable words... I always believe it's empty words, because we still can point out their mistakes and wrong-doings...
And even so we did, they will say something else to make themselves right... And most of them are good enough, so it makes the right person wrong, and the wrongs go right...
And trust me for this phrase: If u walk out the street right now, 80% of the citizens u can see are ppl who like these...
If they are wrong, it only depends on their mouth to save them or not... Just like LAW, that's y ppl say LAW is fun... But to me i see things are just misunderstoodly unfair...
And friends too... Some people just did wrong and make themselves right, and if they told their friends what happen, their friends will think they are right, worse case, their fren will also fight for their friend even though they already knw its wrong... More people = Win
But true victory doesn't lies on these people, keep that in mind my frens...
An example here:
" Even if no one is perfect in this world , but we should also not to make ourselves to get worse! "
This phrase is very correct and make sense. I copied from a fren from facebook, im not taking him as an example, but an exmaple of people around who can say holy good stuff like this in facebook or to people, but they dont really mean it deep inside them.
When im young i cant even talk well and i only know whats right and wrong, sometimes i did the wrong for sake.
And its just funny, like another task from God
I need to questioned these ppl, to teach them, to point out and reveal their invisible weapons..
But this is no easy task, More people = more oppotunity
I will fight for my sake and for what i think it is right of the "FACT" , not for friends or my own pleasure instincts.
FOR NOW... :) my game is turning out slowly...
Time to take back the word:
"No1 is right or wrong in this world, it's only the matter of good or bad"
The reason i said this because lots of people nvr get the true fact even by thought, i have no idea to help them, so i split them into their own rights with that phrase, for goodness... But i will still use it, only on the people who dont understands yet
Always think they are the right, and the one who only hurt, and the only 1 who thinks...
When comes to anything, they show nothing, but great talkings... And they think they are the only one who hurt and giving reasonable words... I always believe it's empty words, because we still can point out their mistakes and wrong-doings...
And even so we did, they will say something else to make themselves right... And most of them are good enough, so it makes the right person wrong, and the wrongs go right...
And trust me for this phrase: If u walk out the street right now, 80% of the citizens u can see are ppl who like these...
If they are wrong, it only depends on their mouth to save them or not... Just like LAW, that's y ppl say LAW is fun... But to me i see things are just misunderstoodly unfair...
And friends too... Some people just did wrong and make themselves right, and if they told their friends what happen, their friends will think they are right, worse case, their fren will also fight for their friend even though they already knw its wrong... More people = Win
But true victory doesn't lies on these people, keep that in mind my frens...
An example here:
" Even if no one is perfect in this world , but we should also not to make ourselves to get worse! "
This phrase is very correct and make sense. I copied from a fren from facebook, im not taking him as an example, but an exmaple of people around who can say holy good stuff like this in facebook or to people, but they dont really mean it deep inside them.
When im young i cant even talk well and i only know whats right and wrong, sometimes i did the wrong for sake.
And its just funny, like another task from God
I need to questioned these ppl, to teach them, to point out and reveal their invisible weapons..
But this is no easy task, More people = more oppotunity
I will fight for my sake and for what i think it is right of the "FACT" , not for friends or my own pleasure instincts.
FOR NOW... :) my game is turning out slowly...
Time to take back the word:
"No1 is right or wrong in this world, it's only the matter of good or bad"
The reason i said this because lots of people nvr get the true fact even by thought, i have no idea to help them, so i split them into their own rights with that phrase, for goodness... But i will still use it, only on the people who dont understands yet
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
holiday...
practise practise :)
play hon~
watch inception... nice story abt dream...
go to dex house's party.. saw nick...
was about to go mbo buy tickets for harry potter, but no1 got card D:
go to ren jian drink drink with phang&tupai
met others ther at dex house too... unfortunately @.@
saw zoumin and terence and girls with them too...
then jeremy and chiachia came too...
gosh today met so much ppl...
after that phang goin mars for his training... GS (ghost shadow)
we walk to see his training, who knws kiat siang and his gang at ther too... another 5 ppl pop out @.@... its at the 2nd floor... and i walk over to the other side, i saw raydner and his gang too! LOL another 5 again... and another 10 again... damien and his gang! LOL, then the corner still got few ppl i knew again, some were studying at swinburne too... LOL everywhere ppl i knew... then those ex-classmate i met at dex house came up too! LOL!!!
after chit chatters tupai pull me to platform with jeremy and chiachia... a little boring chitchatter and drank some beers... back home talk about harry potter with my bro, i hand over book7 to him, he will read it with no time... then he will tell me :)
i wonder, these activity i kinda feel like i seldom having le... its lik in holiday... but i no holiday, FUCK MPW + my bm no credit i think, so nid take bahasa kebangsaan again... haiz....
i kinda satisfied with my hair styling nowadays but i still think that my fringe is lik girl style = = anyway, im gonna buy osis dust powder so when i set it wont be look wet... and im satisfied with my new styling without touching my hairskin, and my hairdrop decreased alot :)
tml phang is gonna fetch frm sch, 1st time seeing him drive and fetch me... usually he don drive & we fetch him...
everythg is changing isnt it? :(
well, changed years ago :s
21st will be the last reunion for 5H, dex is leaving and he wont be back... hope everyone goes on that day... especially those girls, even though i don really like this class, but at least last one...
practise practise :)
play hon~
watch inception... nice story abt dream...
go to dex house's party.. saw nick...
was about to go mbo buy tickets for harry potter, but no1 got card D:
go to ren jian drink drink with phang&tupai
met others ther at dex house too... unfortunately @.@
saw zoumin and terence and girls with them too...
then jeremy and chiachia came too...
gosh today met so much ppl...
after that phang goin mars for his training... GS (ghost shadow)
we walk to see his training, who knws kiat siang and his gang at ther too... another 5 ppl pop out @.@... its at the 2nd floor... and i walk over to the other side, i saw raydner and his gang too! LOL another 5 again... and another 10 again... damien and his gang! LOL, then the corner still got few ppl i knew again, some were studying at swinburne too... LOL everywhere ppl i knew... then those ex-classmate i met at dex house came up too! LOL!!!
after chit chatters tupai pull me to platform with jeremy and chiachia... a little boring chitchatter and drank some beers... back home talk about harry potter with my bro, i hand over book7 to him, he will read it with no time... then he will tell me :)
i wonder, these activity i kinda feel like i seldom having le... its lik in holiday... but i no holiday, FUCK MPW + my bm no credit i think, so nid take bahasa kebangsaan again... haiz....
i kinda satisfied with my hair styling nowadays but i still think that my fringe is lik girl style = = anyway, im gonna buy osis dust powder so when i set it wont be look wet... and im satisfied with my new styling without touching my hairskin, and my hairdrop decreased alot :)
tml phang is gonna fetch frm sch, 1st time seeing him drive and fetch me... usually he don drive & we fetch him...
everythg is changing isnt it? :(
well, changed years ago :s
21st will be the last reunion for 5H, dex is leaving and he wont be back... hope everyone goes on that day... especially those girls, even though i don really like this class, but at least last one...
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Friday, November 12, 2010
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
GhosT
got ghost watching me everyday...
turn into a human...
play facebook and chat with me...
knew lots of stuff...
my broken arm
some ppl...
some frens...
my old & current sch...
my parents story...
and songs i listen...
my fav food and drinks...
and knw wat i think is the truth for relationship between frens or love...
can see me bath everyday...
my old best fren...
my cousin...
my hp no.
my full name, include my bro...
my mom ocupation...
my kuching arrival...
where i live...
oi.. i knw u can see i post this oso... u Zetsu lai de ha?
turn into a human...
play facebook and chat with me...
knew lots of stuff...
my broken arm
some ppl...
some frens...
my old & current sch...
my parents story...
and songs i listen...
my fav food and drinks...
and knw wat i think is the truth for relationship between frens or love...
can see me bath everyday...
my old best fren...
my cousin...
my hp no.
my full name, include my bro...
my mom ocupation...
my kuching arrival...
where i live...
oi.. i knw u can see i post this oso... u Zetsu lai de ha?
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Wawa T_T
i wan an epaulet T_T
i wan a sound card T_T
i wan a new phone T_T
i wan a amp T_T
i wan a hair dryer T_T
i wan to upgrade my violin stirngs and bows T_T
i wan a good keyboard T_T
i wan a osis powder T_T
bit by bit... bit by bit... it costs alot of money... only the matter of buy which 1 1st and money earning prob...
so wat? money nia ma... can earn de ma... jus be happy for who u r...
but..
i wan the all the ppl i knew
cant be as bad they are...
can be trusted...
can be felt confortable to be with...
can be as optimistic as they are...
i may live lik a cat...
but my desires are still enormous :)
i wan a sound card T_T
i wan a new phone T_T
i wan a amp T_T
i wan a hair dryer T_T
i wan to upgrade my violin stirngs and bows T_T
i wan a good keyboard T_T
i wan a osis powder T_T
bit by bit... bit by bit... it costs alot of money... only the matter of buy which 1 1st and money earning prob...
so wat? money nia ma... can earn de ma... jus be happy for who u r...
but..
i wan the all the ppl i knew
cant be as bad they are...
can be trusted...
can be felt confortable to be with...
can be as optimistic as they are...
i may live lik a cat...
but my desires are still enormous :)
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Monday, November 1, 2010
LifE Of A CaT
Meow...
i was once a stupid person, who try to change myself to the surrounding...
Indead its true im different from others, and i learn their way... learn to cooperate with ppl... accept their abnormalities (actually its me) , follow what they did...
friends... educations... take orders for responsibility... and treat the world fairly as if the world is unfair... as i learn to care others more than myself... and i found out, ppl around are not as simple as they do as well... and i rarely found ppl with true relationships... only masked ppl around... thick masks @.@
then i found my way back to the root... i been so much trouble form a selfish person to a fair person... but, i shall turn back to who i am... treat everything as nice... but i shall care for myself more for now on... for neither friends, family or a girl...
i will make my choice... whether is for my sake or not...
yes, my fake mask has to be taken off... u can call me a stray cat... i quit royal loyalty... i wont follow orders unless if i want to... i choose to choose... to choose my own way and life...
Thats the way of a cat... wandering outside and walk to anywhere i like... make decisions of my free will...
even though a cat is own by someone, the cat still only do what it wants even the owner asks to :)
whenever where i am, i will make my own will...
at home or school...
the risk of leaving family or expelled frm sch is nothing to me anymore... because, if i wanted to, i will...
oh, cat do love milk, dont they??
ah, its nothing better than drinking milk under the moonlight isnt it?
we are just lazy animals~ X)
i was once a stupid person, who try to change myself to the surrounding...
Indead its true im different from others, and i learn their way... learn to cooperate with ppl... accept their abnormalities (actually its me) , follow what they did...
friends... educations... take orders for responsibility... and treat the world fairly as if the world is unfair... as i learn to care others more than myself... and i found out, ppl around are not as simple as they do as well... and i rarely found ppl with true relationships... only masked ppl around... thick masks @.@
then i found my way back to the root... i been so much trouble form a selfish person to a fair person... but, i shall turn back to who i am... treat everything as nice... but i shall care for myself more for now on... for neither friends, family or a girl...
i will make my choice... whether is for my sake or not...
yes, my fake mask has to be taken off... u can call me a stray cat... i quit royal loyalty... i wont follow orders unless if i want to... i choose to choose... to choose my own way and life...
Thats the way of a cat... wandering outside and walk to anywhere i like... make decisions of my free will...
even though a cat is own by someone, the cat still only do what it wants even the owner asks to :)
whenever where i am, i will make my own will...
at home or school...
the risk of leaving family or expelled frm sch is nothing to me anymore... because, if i wanted to, i will...
oh, cat do love milk, dont they??
ah, its nothing better than drinking milk under the moonlight isnt it?
we are just lazy animals~ X)
Saturday, October 30, 2010
JaminG
jaming feels good...
this time i got a rock band...
i nvr had 1 b4...
rock till my ears wan to burst arr....
it feels so good when we play our roll...
actually i love classic more,
maybe jus im born into the wrong period...
but i love rock and metal too...
haha, music is life!
this time i got a rock band...
i nvr had 1 b4...
rock till my ears wan to burst arr....
it feels so good when we play our roll...
actually i love classic more,
maybe jus im born into the wrong period...
but i love rock and metal too...
haha, music is life!
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
I DARE YOU
PHANG ZHEN SEN
Your name, i DARE speak out here...
u fucking hybrid gay...
gay then gay la, y campurcampur de...
still act agua...
think u so fat?
ur mother didnt giv u drink her milk lo...
LOOK IN THE MIRROR
who likes you????
DO YOU HAVE A REAL RELATIONSHIP?
LIKE ME, I CAN PPL I LOVE AND I CAN TRUST (other than my family)
for you? just a fckin shih ead classmate...
only knw "HU" ppl and make use of them...
everytime ask me buy things for u eat? think can use me meh?
say i didnt bring u go out play... who wan bring u out and play with yr freakin smell..? and also, u think i got face if ppl see i walk with u?
SIA SOI REN LA...
u dont like me?? giv it up.. I DONT EVEN LIKE YOU BEFORE U DONT LIKE ME...
who cares? u'll just a gay, untrustable and useless...
good in study for wat? im design...
good in photoshop for wat? no brain manipulate them...
u think u photoshop can rule the whole design class meh? through all degree year?
lanjiao~ la o0o , ur brain quality is jut shit... u can only manipulate, but u dont know how...
u think u no weakness? lots of ppl ord gossips around in swinburne abt ur freaking shit asshole ord...
last time u think u can act girl style to treat me? and everytime? anything happens then u can use "CRY" or "SHOUT" to scare me off? hoohoo... like i care... =.=
u think got bug fly to my head then u can smack my head? u knw how itai is it? u think i can get it off so easily? i tell you, u will regret for that...
as for ur stupid boyfren... i think he is not even yr boyfren, jus a target u can never reach... i laugh him then u besong me till lik that? insult me got use? shoot me behind got use?
dont think im fun to fool with... i will FUCK you... not in sch... outside... so beware... im not foolish like u r...
i hav lots frens who hated u too...
DEAR READERS, FOR THIS FUCKING INFO U WAN TO KNW WHO IT IS THEN CHECK > http://www.facebook.com/#!/ZSenPhang
that is the lionroar screamer...
soon will turn to dead cock barking...
Your name, i DARE speak out here...
u fucking hybrid gay...
gay then gay la, y campurcampur de...
still act agua...
think u so fat?
ur mother didnt giv u drink her milk lo...
LOOK IN THE MIRROR
who likes you????
DO YOU HAVE A REAL RELATIONSHIP?
LIKE ME, I CAN PPL I LOVE AND I CAN TRUST (other than my family)
for you? just a fckin shih ead classmate...
only knw "HU" ppl and make use of them...
everytime ask me buy things for u eat? think can use me meh?
say i didnt bring u go out play... who wan bring u out and play with yr freakin smell..? and also, u think i got face if ppl see i walk with u?
SIA SOI REN LA...
u dont like me?? giv it up.. I DONT EVEN LIKE YOU BEFORE U DONT LIKE ME...
who cares? u'll just a gay, untrustable and useless...
good in study for wat? im design...
good in photoshop for wat? no brain manipulate them...
u think u photoshop can rule the whole design class meh? through all degree year?
lanjiao~ la o0o , ur brain quality is jut shit... u can only manipulate, but u dont know how...
u think u no weakness? lots of ppl ord gossips around in swinburne abt ur freaking shit asshole ord...
last time u think u can act girl style to treat me? and everytime? anything happens then u can use "CRY" or "SHOUT" to scare me off? hoohoo... like i care... =.=
u think got bug fly to my head then u can smack my head? u knw how itai is it? u think i can get it off so easily? i tell you, u will regret for that...
as for ur stupid boyfren... i think he is not even yr boyfren, jus a target u can never reach... i laugh him then u besong me till lik that? insult me got use? shoot me behind got use?
dont think im fun to fool with... i will FUCK you... not in sch... outside... so beware... im not foolish like u r...
i hav lots frens who hated u too...
DEAR READERS, FOR THIS FUCKING INFO U WAN TO KNW WHO IT IS THEN CHECK > http://www.facebook.com/#!/ZSenPhang
that is the lionroar screamer...
soon will turn to dead cock barking...
Sunday, October 24, 2010
When i gets sentimental, my realself appears... (thx to blackcat)
i guess, i fall too easily...
i should fall to the right one...
i should not act anymore...
i should be my own from the start...
crushing into someone and something bad happen is really a pain...
i shall not fall recklessly anymore...
that cherrywong girl form facebook is right...
should wait until the one comes...
guess maybe im too harsh before...
it only make things worse...
another pain and lesson to my memory...
im getting clever and clever,
but always stupid when things come...
i guess, i fall too easily...
i should fall to the right one...
i should not act anymore...
i should be my own from the start...
crushing into someone and something bad happen is really a pain...
i shall not fall recklessly anymore...
that cherrywong girl form facebook is right...
should wait until the one comes...
guess maybe im too harsh before...
it only make things worse...
another pain and lesson to my memory...
im getting clever and clever,
but always stupid when things come...
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Why?
This feels so shit and unlife
thers is alot of things i wana say but i cant...
i wanted but i failed...
u make use of me...
im just nothing...
now we r lik ntg...
and u gave others wat i wanted...
and u nvr gave me...
for few months i've waited,
but in the others they get in a week...
u see i wanted to be angry and still need to be calm and please to u...
u knw how my head can burst?
u knw how unfair u've been?
and my feeling is not to be played like that...
i have deep feelings, so do u knw how hurt if u play me?
dont u have real feelings? being hurt is nice feel? u r crazy...
thers is alot of things i wana say but i cant...
i wanted but i failed...
u make use of me...
im just nothing...
now we r lik ntg...
and u gave others wat i wanted...
and u nvr gave me...
for few months i've waited,
but in the others they get in a week...
u see i wanted to be angry and still need to be calm and please to u...
u knw how my head can burst?
u knw how unfair u've been?
and my feeling is not to be played like that...
i have deep feelings, so do u knw how hurt if u play me?
dont u have real feelings? being hurt is nice feel? u r crazy...
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Monday, October 18, 2010
HalF DrunK
im very dizzy now... but im still normal as usual, but my vision is so blur and wobbly...
why? bcoz of a broken heart? the worst part is a resealable heart, still felt with hope and nvr let go >.<
I dont know who to ask this only God... Shall i let go? or shall i wait, the fight of time...?
or let time decide?
maybe im too stubborn... my heart is too strong even im drunk, i cant forget just for a while when i drink too much...
other ppl can just forget when they drunk, but y not me?
only frens can make my day actually...
i always available to talk serious... joke talk is normal, i can be serious anytime, why some ppl think they are not ready to be serious? especially towards me?
i don understand...
im dizzy...
im drunk now...
simply type now...
sleepy...
i wan to go to bed...
im still thinking every sec...
pls recall~
g9, slp tgt & swt drms~
why? bcoz of a broken heart? the worst part is a resealable heart, still felt with hope and nvr let go >.<
I dont know who to ask this only God... Shall i let go? or shall i wait, the fight of time...?
or let time decide?
maybe im too stubborn... my heart is too strong even im drunk, i cant forget just for a while when i drink too much...
other ppl can just forget when they drunk, but y not me?
only frens can make my day actually...
i always available to talk serious... joke talk is normal, i can be serious anytime, why some ppl think they are not ready to be serious? especially towards me?
i don understand...
im dizzy...
im drunk now...
simply type now...
sleepy...
i wan to go to bed...
im still thinking every sec...
pls recall~
g9, slp tgt & swt drms~
Saturday, October 16, 2010
You Are My Love
Ame ni nureta hoho wa
namida no nioi ga shita
yasashii manazashii no
tabibito
Shizuka ni hibiiteru
natsukashii ongaku
omoidasenai kioku
samayou
Yume wa tobitatsu no chiisana tsubasa de
omoi no kienai basho made
futari de
tooi umi wo sora wo koete
Kurai yoru no naka de
watashi wo terashiteru
yasashii manazashii no
anata ni
aitai...
namida no nioi ga shita
yasashii manazashii no
tabibito
Shizuka ni hibiiteru
natsukashii ongaku
omoidasenai kioku
samayou
Yume wa tobitatsu no chiisana tsubasa de
omoi no kienai basho made
futari de
tooi umi wo sora wo koete
Kurai yoru no naka de
watashi wo terashiteru
yasashii manazashii no
anata ni
aitai...
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Friday, October 8, 2010
There are times that I wanted to tell her everything that I’ve done for her and make her love me back. But I can’t. Love is not selfish. So I did what felt right. I keep giving her my love but I can never asked for her love in return, because everything i did its just hatred and misunderstanding. And maybe i havnt done anything at all... I just as dumb as i said others... Maybe she deserve another guy
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Thankyou to all my frens...
i knw u ppl is trying to help me...
and i knw that u knw u cant help, but only calm me down...
and i knw only myself can face it...
thankyou for trying to share my pain...
but for now, it's going to take sometime...
every movement of it brings me a pain...
a deep one...
but im too stubborn to my answer...
guess have to be patience...
i knw u ppl is trying to help me...
and i knw that u knw u cant help, but only calm me down...
and i knw only myself can face it...
thankyou for trying to share my pain...
but for now, it's going to take sometime...
every movement of it brings me a pain...
a deep one...
but im too stubborn to my answer...
guess have to be patience...
Sunday, October 3, 2010
TimE
i dont know how strong can i be when comes to time..
im kinda impatient...
but for now, i will fight as long i can...
hold on the suffer as long i can...
shall i take my fren's mistake to challenge time?
are their's is the same fate as mine?
but i think so...
so, i will wait...
someday...
im kinda impatient...
but for now, i will fight as long i can...
hold on the suffer as long i can...
shall i take my fren's mistake to challenge time?
are their's is the same fate as mine?
but i think so...
so, i will wait...
someday...
Saturday, October 2, 2010
PaiN StilL GoeS On
even though ther is pain i've said... the pain is still pain... it wont go away...
when i heard things, it makes me more pain...
if i see things, its far more worse...
how in the world i get into this pain?
its on my hand...
bu gan xing... When i put alot effort on something, before it reaches my hand, then something bad happen... its like im fainted... & when i woke up, everything is too late...
a simple mistake ends everything up...
its so pain...
ppl around still asks... they re innocent, how am i gonna tell them?
im handling this pain...
far more greater than u did...
u've given up...
but have u totally given up?
am i still able to stand?
when i heard things, it makes me more pain...
if i see things, its far more worse...
how in the world i get into this pain?
its on my hand...
bu gan xing... When i put alot effort on something, before it reaches my hand, then something bad happen... its like im fainted... & when i woke up, everything is too late...
a simple mistake ends everything up...
its so pain...
ppl around still asks... they re innocent, how am i gonna tell them?
im handling this pain...
far more greater than u did...
u've given up...
but have u totally given up?
am i still able to stand?
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Things turn back to me
my frenz dont hav patience.. they dont give time, thats y they failed...
who knows? me too...
well, i think i deserve it...
but i think the lesson is not over...
i think i nid to start give time frm now on...
to anything else, and for the case...
juz wana say, nt yet giv up frm failure, but it might be a true failure...
kinda useless to say this...
but i guess, no matter how smart a person is, he cant think of everything...
who knows? me too...
well, i think i deserve it...
but i think the lesson is not over...
i think i nid to start give time frm now on...
to anything else, and for the case...
juz wana say, nt yet giv up frm failure, but it might be a true failure...
kinda useless to say this...
but i guess, no matter how smart a person is, he cant think of everything...
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
I See You
i see you everyday...
when i see you... juz felt pain...
pain...
my feelings is always the deepest and sensitive...
and i nvr like 2leave things behind...
i always turn back to get things done...
can u read my feelings?
do u have feelings?
if u have? can let me read it?
is yr feelings as deep as mine?
all those good times were never exist...
i was nvr able to open yr heart...
it is juz physical reaction...
and to do things to let time pass...
as deep we've ever been through,
i doubt that u wont have feelings...
bcoz if u wont,
then i was fooled the whole time...
being used?
but i wish to believe u will...
and now, i couldnt do anything more...
its juz when
I SEE YOU
i feel pain...
when i see you... juz felt pain...
pain...
my feelings is always the deepest and sensitive...
and i nvr like 2leave things behind...
i always turn back to get things done...
can u read my feelings?
do u have feelings?
if u have? can let me read it?
is yr feelings as deep as mine?
all those good times were never exist...
i was nvr able to open yr heart...
it is juz physical reaction...
and to do things to let time pass...
as deep we've ever been through,
i doubt that u wont have feelings...
bcoz if u wont,
then i was fooled the whole time...
being used?
but i wish to believe u will...
and now, i couldnt do anything more...
its juz when
I SEE YOU
i feel pain...
Sunday, September 26, 2010
When Fringe Has Cutted Off
see so easy
eat so easy
sleep so easy
play piano so easy
play violin so easy
wear contacts so easy
drive so easy
comb so easy
so many easy...
feel so easy too~ :)
eat so easy
sleep so easy
play piano so easy
play violin so easy
wear contacts so easy
drive so easy
comb so easy
so many easy...
feel so easy too~ :)
Friday, September 24, 2010
Bad Apple!! - ]TOUHOU] feat nomico
Bad Apple!!
Nagareteku toki no naka de demo kedarusa ga hora guruguru mawatte
Watashi kara hanareru kokoro mo mienaiwa sou shiranai?
Jibun kara ugoku koto mo naku toki no sukima ni nagasare tsuzukete
Shiranai wa mawari no koto nado watashi wa watashi sore dake
Yume miteru? Nani mo mitenai? Kataru mo muda na jibun no kotoba
Kanashimu nante tsukareru dake yo nani mo kanjizu sugoseba ii no
Tomadou kotoba ataerarete mo jibun no kokoro tada uwa no sora
Moshi watashi kara ugoku no naraba subete kaeru no nara kuro ni suru
Konna jibun ni mirai wa aru no? Konna sekai ni watashi wa iru no?
Ima setsunai no? Ima kanashii no? Jibun no koto mo wakaranai mama
Ayumu koto sae tsukareru dake yo hito no koto nado shiri mo shinaiwa
Konna watashi mo kawareru no nara moshi kawareru no nara shiro ni naru
Nagareteku toki no naka de demo kedarusa ga hora guruguru mawatte
Watashi kara hanareru kokoro mo mienaiwa sou shiranai?
Jibun kara ugoku koto mo naku toki no sukima ni nagasare tsuzukete
Shiranai wa mawari no koto nado watashi wa watashi sore dake
Yume miteru? Nani mo mitenai? Kataru mo muda na jibun no kotoba
Kanashimu nante tsukareru dake yo nani mo kanjizu sugoseba ii no
Tomadou kotoba ataerarete mo jibun no kokoro tada uwa no sora
Moshi watashi kara ugoku no naraba subete kaeru no nara kuro ni suru
Muda na jikan ni mirai wa aru no? Konna tokoro ni watashi wa iru no?
Watashi no koto wo iitai naraba kotoba ni suru no nara [rokudenashi]
Konna tokoro ni watashi wa iru no? Konna jikan ni watashi wa iru no?
Konna watashi mo kawareru no nara moshi kawareru no nara shiro ni naru
Ima yume miteru? Nani mo mitenai? Kataru mo muda na jibun no kotoba
Kanashimu nante tsukareru dake yo nani mo kanjizu sugoseba ii no
Tomadou kotoba ataeraretemo jibun no kokoro tada uwa no sora
Moshi watashi kara ugoku no naraba subete kaeru no nara kuro ni suru
Ugoku no naraba ugoku no naraba subete kowasuwa subete kowasuwa
Kanashimu naraba kanashimu naraba watashi no kokoro shiroku kawareru?
Anata no koto mo watashi no koto mo subete no koto mo mada shiranai no
Omoi mabuta wo aketa no naraba subete kowasu no nara kuro ni nare!!!
Nagareteku toki no naka de demo kedarusa ga hora guruguru mawatte
Watashi kara hanareru kokoro mo mienaiwa sou shiranai?
Jibun kara ugoku koto mo naku toki no sukima ni nagasare tsuzukete
Shiranai wa mawari no koto nado watashi wa watashi sore dake
Yume miteru? Nani mo mitenai? Kataru mo muda na jibun no kotoba
Kanashimu nante tsukareru dake yo nani mo kanjizu sugoseba ii no
Tomadou kotoba ataerarete mo jibun no kokoro tada uwa no sora
Moshi watashi kara ugoku no naraba subete kaeru no nara kuro ni suru
Konna jibun ni mirai wa aru no? Konna sekai ni watashi wa iru no?
Ima setsunai no? Ima kanashii no? Jibun no koto mo wakaranai mama
Ayumu koto sae tsukareru dake yo hito no koto nado shiri mo shinaiwa
Konna watashi mo kawareru no nara moshi kawareru no nara shiro ni naru
Nagareteku toki no naka de demo kedarusa ga hora guruguru mawatte
Watashi kara hanareru kokoro mo mienaiwa sou shiranai?
Jibun kara ugoku koto mo naku toki no sukima ni nagasare tsuzukete
Shiranai wa mawari no koto nado watashi wa watashi sore dake
Yume miteru? Nani mo mitenai? Kataru mo muda na jibun no kotoba
Kanashimu nante tsukareru dake yo nani mo kanjizu sugoseba ii no
Tomadou kotoba ataerarete mo jibun no kokoro tada uwa no sora
Moshi watashi kara ugoku no naraba subete kaeru no nara kuro ni suru
Muda na jikan ni mirai wa aru no? Konna tokoro ni watashi wa iru no?
Watashi no koto wo iitai naraba kotoba ni suru no nara [rokudenashi]
Konna tokoro ni watashi wa iru no? Konna jikan ni watashi wa iru no?
Konna watashi mo kawareru no nara moshi kawareru no nara shiro ni naru
Ima yume miteru? Nani mo mitenai? Kataru mo muda na jibun no kotoba
Kanashimu nante tsukareru dake yo nani mo kanjizu sugoseba ii no
Tomadou kotoba ataeraretemo jibun no kokoro tada uwa no sora
Moshi watashi kara ugoku no naraba subete kaeru no nara kuro ni suru
Ugoku no naraba ugoku no naraba subete kowasuwa subete kowasuwa
Kanashimu naraba kanashimu naraba watashi no kokoro shiroku kawareru?
Anata no koto mo watashi no koto mo subete no koto mo mada shiranai no
Omoi mabuta wo aketa no naraba subete kowasu no nara kuro ni nare!!!
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Monday, September 20, 2010
My Fucking English Lecturer
WONG YAO HING - Big, fat and round... agua... moon face... talk like shit cant come out... and like to sentence up his talk with a " k~ "
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
CigarettE
I've tried cigarettes... but i dont get addicted..
when i was holding a cigarette, it makes me feel like...
why this small grass thingy stick can make lots of ppl addicted?
like my frens arround me need it so much lik they cant stand without it @.@
everytime i went to kopitiam, i see ppl arround smokes and the floor was like....
am i being glad that im not addicted on this stuff?
indeed i felt proud...
this thing is burning the grass, and i am inhaling it into my lungs...
and the burning feel goes into my lung... @.@
did others felt like this?
or they dont?
or they knew but cant imagine the harmness?
smoking its like an activity to me, i dont smoke for i need it.. i smoke for trying, doing something for not being bored, or to socialize with others... therefore, its like communicating business...
for others who loves smoke, i would like to say: dont stop it...
if u love it, u should... its not im trying to harm yr health... its like u doing for yr joy... thats the main thing..
if u r happy with it, then dont stop...
like "happy or good" life
u must also take care of yr health once in a while... so dont smoke too much buddies...
when i was holding a cigarette, it makes me feel like...
why this small grass thingy stick can make lots of ppl addicted?
like my frens arround me need it so much lik they cant stand without it @.@
everytime i went to kopitiam, i see ppl arround smokes and the floor was like....
am i being glad that im not addicted on this stuff?
indeed i felt proud...
this thing is burning the grass, and i am inhaling it into my lungs...
and the burning feel goes into my lung... @.@
did others felt like this?
or they dont?
or they knew but cant imagine the harmness?
smoking its like an activity to me, i dont smoke for i need it.. i smoke for trying, doing something for not being bored, or to socialize with others... therefore, its like communicating business...
for others who loves smoke, i would like to say: dont stop it...
if u love it, u should... its not im trying to harm yr health... its like u doing for yr joy... thats the main thing..
if u r happy with it, then dont stop...
like "happy or good" life
u must also take care of yr health once in a while... so dont smoke too much buddies...
Thursday, September 9, 2010
FeeL GooD
2day feel so good.. thx to a fren...
and the night air feels good... and sky is bright in mid night...
im gonna rock...
as for the ghost who atk me...
haha no chance... come on, i can play rock everyday too...
cant penetrate my body...
can nvr beat my will~
i will always be on God's child...
wont got the chance to possess me XD
and the night air feels good... and sky is bright in mid night...
im gonna rock...
as for the ghost who atk me...
haha no chance... come on, i can play rock everyday too...
cant penetrate my body...
can nvr beat my will~
i will always be on God's child...
wont got the chance to possess me XD
Sunday, September 5, 2010
ReunioN
this night is my 5h reunion...
c lots of ex clz mate, im not interested in all ecept sylvia..
well she is the only person im interested to talk to, and she talks to me lot more...
i kinda feel our bond is breaking apart, juz like 6u... but this is 5h... same right? time will break us apart..
but anyway, i dont really care so much, since november gonna hav another day again, we shall meet again... all of them comment on my hair, i always have long hair, but not as long as now... lol, jealous or wat... LOL haha...
after that send mom home and go to meet my brothers at mahjong...
chitchat until so late, and big rain...
run over the car ther then whole body wet...
go eat drink and chitchat...
and go home...
interesting day?
or
boring day?
c lots of ex clz mate, im not interested in all ecept sylvia..
well she is the only person im interested to talk to, and she talks to me lot more...
i kinda feel our bond is breaking apart, juz like 6u... but this is 5h... same right? time will break us apart..
but anyway, i dont really care so much, since november gonna hav another day again, we shall meet again... all of them comment on my hair, i always have long hair, but not as long as now... lol, jealous or wat... LOL haha...
after that send mom home and go to meet my brothers at mahjong...
chitchat until so late, and big rain...
run over the car ther then whole body wet...
go eat drink and chitchat...
and go home...
interesting day?
or
boring day?
Thursday, September 2, 2010
AVATAR
watched avatar again...
so far best rated movie by me...
now 2nd time watch, i feel the world again...
if others can feel wat i feel as well, they might understand y i become a designer...
to describe my dreamlands, the world is much much bigger than this corrupted world.. juz beyond my imagination...
i felt like talking like a kid, but this is juz how i feel deep inside, i wonder when can i go to my world...
basically, this world is building my dreams up more and more...
so far best rated movie by me...
now 2nd time watch, i feel the world again...
if others can feel wat i feel as well, they might understand y i become a designer...
to describe my dreamlands, the world is much much bigger than this corrupted world.. juz beyond my imagination...
i felt like talking like a kid, but this is juz how i feel deep inside, i wonder when can i go to my world...
basically, this world is building my dreams up more and more...
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
ClasH Of BrotherS
wat happen brothers...
dy.. i can c u getting unreasonable...
actually i didnt mind anything...
im always always of these clashings...
dy... juz be back to normal, and be as good person u r...
sometimes i oso scare to tell me frens all my brothers are gangsters arr... LOL
abt vin's prophecy... i hope that wont happen... hit a brother... dont trust those lasap bomoh...
ron seems innocent and stay out if it wasnt his fault, but he seems more dragged in than me HAHA... im the most peace of all, well isnt my job to cool every1 down..?
i dont hav much news abt cheng... he's probably wif dy... i dont know whats he thinking now... gotta see him... we brothers havnt reunion all quite in a while...
i was thinking of having bbq, but 1st, hang out and talk...
comon, i hanvt draw us... i was always wanted to, but lazy and no time and stupid reasons haha...
think of u ppl i still a little more happy la...
dy.. i can c u getting unreasonable...
actually i didnt mind anything...
im always always of these clashings...
dy... juz be back to normal, and be as good person u r...
sometimes i oso scare to tell me frens all my brothers are gangsters arr... LOL
abt vin's prophecy... i hope that wont happen... hit a brother... dont trust those lasap bomoh...
ron seems innocent and stay out if it wasnt his fault, but he seems more dragged in than me HAHA... im the most peace of all, well isnt my job to cool every1 down..?
i dont hav much news abt cheng... he's probably wif dy... i dont know whats he thinking now... gotta see him... we brothers havnt reunion all quite in a while...
i was thinking of having bbq, but 1st, hang out and talk...
comon, i hanvt draw us... i was always wanted to, but lazy and no time and stupid reasons haha...
think of u ppl i still a little more happy la...
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Pro Backstabber
Think u more clever than me?
i've known long time ago, juz no evidence...
u pro back stabber...
i knw u r a good guy... a true good guy...
but u pro set ppl mind until they fully trust u, even though is true...
coz im 1 of u too, so i do knw... psychology cant hide frm psychology...
the way i see u try to help ppl in their depression...
or especially facing some1, i understand how u set minds oredi...
the way u describe the opponent doesnt sound bad, but u had the way to make them feel u r right and ur words r trustable... and its so obvious, but i dont think others can see these...
i always thought u got a strong mind, as i do... can overcome anything in appearance, as i expect u knw that u cant let ur emotions down on some1 else... and i always see that u do...
who knows ur break points reaches its limit... and its considered weak for pro mind setters lik u...
this is wat i see from my eyes and predicted from psychology...
u do always quarel wif ur gf, on phone nor texting... i knw... and yr gf knw wats goin on in me by spying this blog... and its a long time ago story, so i can knw that ur gf really spy every posts of my blog... and so? i knw u read them as well, every word... as i say u open minded and good guy, i believe u get it over quickly... as i do, i had already forgiven u for wat u did to me long time ago... and i knw u knw that...
2/3 months later u bring this case up to fight?
ridiculous? obviously u cant cheat me...
oh i get it, ur gf blame u for doin craps to me by spying my old post...
and u dn dare face me in face, but send such a whole crap msg during my innovation class...
but this is worse, i kept my coolness and still trying to solve yr problem, such clever person lik u still cant help it, and still shooting blaming all the way...
alright, actually at this time i don know whats going on... and u said that, its long time ago, i've already forgiven u 0and i dont think of it anymore... its becoz of its history in this blog effect ur relationship? wat can i say? it is ur problem! & u pull me into the middle person...
after class, i walk down and saw this idiot, hah? dont dare face me? i wlak over and say hi...
remain speechless... (pathetic?)
i say: hows is it? im worried, i sohuld help u to explain everything, i mean it in the past but i've already dont bring that out anymore, i've forgiven it...
this idiot says(in summary): everythings is gonna be fine, dont worry... i knw my gf, she dont like explanation... nothing is going on... i can handle myself, its oredi alright... things gonna be fine...
i: gee... is it? i dont think so i nid to talk wif whoever i nid to explain...
he: (shake head)
i: we r frens right? problems we can share or jus talk about it, wat for hiding it? (this phrase is wat u say exactly to me b4...) i knw u acting wierd to me these days, i knew something happen... when did this happen?
he: last week..
i: last week is so long le... y dont u bring this up earlier?
he: coz, when she said about it, its still ok.. but when our quarells getting worse, i cant stand anymore... so....
i: ok....
i: oh ya, i knw u knw that these days i had prob wif her as well, and she is getting more further frm b4, and i knw u r behind somehow...
(this paragrah must be muted, for the sake of victims who read this)
and the lesson from this is:
u r so strong, yet ur weak part has shown in time lik this, and going back to normal to lie me? i dont think so... u said that u helped me, but.... u already blame me for such big trouble, and yet u think u will me in my trouble? saying good things about me, act innocent to everything? i dont think so, i bet u r saying my things behind too, and its toooooo obvious... coz these problems came from the same thing... reading my blog... and also, the way i heard u talk other ppl(some1 else) how to avoid a guy or girl or boygirl frens... and its all so connected, and u dont expect me to figure this out?
u really looked down on me boy... coz im 18 doesnt mean i knw less things to u... infact u dono im looking everything above u...
so... lesson from the begining:
thats how u quarell with ur gf and its my fault... i bet no 1 guessed this out... yes its true it looks like my fault... but, its his own problem... he said 'last week', but only came out trouble in a week later... this is obviously i knw u had quarells wif ur gf all time... i dont care actually, but even ur gf did mention about it 'last week', u should have been facing it last week... and a week later, had quarell again, and it is becoming worse, so ur gf tend to use the problem on my blog to take as her advantage to shoot u and win u as well, and its true, all i wrote is truth... so r u speechless? and u lost? u said u lost ur gf, bcoz of me... i bet not... u lost urself, im only 1 of the reason u lost...
so why blame me? set mind of all frens especially her, not u find her... she finds u, so is it easy to poison her mind up? yes of coz...
she treats me as nothing even now... other frens on last sem got few weeks that nvr ask me for a drink on night (that we usually limteh almost all night)
and u poison them up deep deep well...
even now sem2, i can see a distant between us... and also her... every1 always gossips arround and ask me abt our relationship... but now no more... thats obvious to me too... they knw already somehow, so they kept quiet as nothing happen... nonid to lie me... i knw oredi... thers no way u wouldn ask if i dont talk to some1 i talks to everyday... isnt these simple psychology reading?
well, im right of all these words after all, i got info from other ppl of u spreading these shits of ur mind set stories arround... and im very impress u so pro in setting minds, especially on girls... no wonder u got so mny ex b4...
so whos the victim at last? isnt it me? i lost 1 good fren and 1 close fren...
u lost ur girlfren, but y i still heard rumours of u spending time together wif her? dont tell me that ur breakup wif ur gf was all a lie... that wont be true...
so from now on thers a gap between us, u will nvr enter to my life... i can only rank u up to a good fren thats all... beside i see ur fake masks attitude everyday now... only if u learn ur freakin shit lesson and see whats going on...
even until the end i havnt break my limit, so r u trying break my limit? i can do or not do so, but if u do, u will regret... im not a stupid person...
WONDER WHOS THE FUCKER IM SAYING?
owh, its not gonna be said here u idiot... i knw the very moment u will look this blog! so figure yrself out... i knw hundreds or more of u r reading this everyday...
i've known long time ago, juz no evidence...
u pro back stabber...
i knw u r a good guy... a true good guy...
but u pro set ppl mind until they fully trust u, even though is true...
coz im 1 of u too, so i do knw... psychology cant hide frm psychology...
the way i see u try to help ppl in their depression...
or especially facing some1, i understand how u set minds oredi...
the way u describe the opponent doesnt sound bad, but u had the way to make them feel u r right and ur words r trustable... and its so obvious, but i dont think others can see these...
i always thought u got a strong mind, as i do... can overcome anything in appearance, as i expect u knw that u cant let ur emotions down on some1 else... and i always see that u do...
who knows ur break points reaches its limit... and its considered weak for pro mind setters lik u...
this is wat i see from my eyes and predicted from psychology...
u do always quarel wif ur gf, on phone nor texting... i knw... and yr gf knw wats goin on in me by spying this blog... and its a long time ago story, so i can knw that ur gf really spy every posts of my blog... and so? i knw u read them as well, every word... as i say u open minded and good guy, i believe u get it over quickly... as i do, i had already forgiven u for wat u did to me long time ago... and i knw u knw that...
2/3 months later u bring this case up to fight?
ridiculous? obviously u cant cheat me...
oh i get it, ur gf blame u for doin craps to me by spying my old post...
and u dn dare face me in face, but send such a whole crap msg during my innovation class...
but this is worse, i kept my coolness and still trying to solve yr problem, such clever person lik u still cant help it, and still shooting blaming all the way...
alright, actually at this time i don know whats going on... and u said that, its long time ago, i've already forgiven u 0and i dont think of it anymore... its becoz of its history in this blog effect ur relationship? wat can i say? it is ur problem! & u pull me into the middle person...
after class, i walk down and saw this idiot, hah? dont dare face me? i wlak over and say hi...
remain speechless... (pathetic?)
i say: hows is it? im worried, i sohuld help u to explain everything, i mean it in the past but i've already dont bring that out anymore, i've forgiven it...
this idiot says(in summary): everythings is gonna be fine, dont worry... i knw my gf, she dont like explanation... nothing is going on... i can handle myself, its oredi alright... things gonna be fine...
i: gee... is it? i dont think so i nid to talk wif whoever i nid to explain...
he: (shake head)
i: we r frens right? problems we can share or jus talk about it, wat for hiding it? (this phrase is wat u say exactly to me b4...) i knw u acting wierd to me these days, i knew something happen... when did this happen?
he: last week..
i: last week is so long le... y dont u bring this up earlier?
he: coz, when she said about it, its still ok.. but when our quarells getting worse, i cant stand anymore... so....
i: ok....
i: oh ya, i knw u knw that these days i had prob wif her as well, and she is getting more further frm b4, and i knw u r behind somehow...
(this paragrah must be muted, for the sake of victims who read this)
and the lesson from this is:
u r so strong, yet ur weak part has shown in time lik this, and going back to normal to lie me? i dont think so... u said that u helped me, but.... u already blame me for such big trouble, and yet u think u will me in my trouble? saying good things about me, act innocent to everything? i dont think so, i bet u r saying my things behind too, and its toooooo obvious... coz these problems came from the same thing... reading my blog... and also, the way i heard u talk other ppl(some1 else) how to avoid a guy or girl or boygirl frens... and its all so connected, and u dont expect me to figure this out?
u really looked down on me boy... coz im 18 doesnt mean i knw less things to u... infact u dono im looking everything above u...
so... lesson from the begining:
thats how u quarell with ur gf and its my fault... i bet no 1 guessed this out... yes its true it looks like my fault... but, its his own problem... he said 'last week', but only came out trouble in a week later... this is obviously i knw u had quarells wif ur gf all time... i dont care actually, but even ur gf did mention about it 'last week', u should have been facing it last week... and a week later, had quarell again, and it is becoming worse, so ur gf tend to use the problem on my blog to take as her advantage to shoot u and win u as well, and its true, all i wrote is truth... so r u speechless? and u lost? u said u lost ur gf, bcoz of me... i bet not... u lost urself, im only 1 of the reason u lost...
so why blame me? set mind of all frens especially her, not u find her... she finds u, so is it easy to poison her mind up? yes of coz...
she treats me as nothing even now... other frens on last sem got few weeks that nvr ask me for a drink on night (that we usually limteh almost all night)
and u poison them up deep deep well...
even now sem2, i can see a distant between us... and also her... every1 always gossips arround and ask me abt our relationship... but now no more... thats obvious to me too... they knw already somehow, so they kept quiet as nothing happen... nonid to lie me... i knw oredi... thers no way u wouldn ask if i dont talk to some1 i talks to everyday... isnt these simple psychology reading?
well, im right of all these words after all, i got info from other ppl of u spreading these shits of ur mind set stories arround... and im very impress u so pro in setting minds, especially on girls... no wonder u got so mny ex b4...
so whos the victim at last? isnt it me? i lost 1 good fren and 1 close fren...
u lost ur girlfren, but y i still heard rumours of u spending time together wif her? dont tell me that ur breakup wif ur gf was all a lie... that wont be true...
so from now on thers a gap between us, u will nvr enter to my life... i can only rank u up to a good fren thats all... beside i see ur fake masks attitude everyday now... only if u learn ur freakin shit lesson and see whats going on...
even until the end i havnt break my limit, so r u trying break my limit? i can do or not do so, but if u do, u will regret... im not a stupid person...
WONDER WHOS THE FUCKER IM SAYING?
owh, its not gonna be said here u idiot... i knw the very moment u will look this blog! so figure yrself out... i knw hundreds or more of u r reading this everyday...
Friday, August 27, 2010
GuitaR
im playing electric guitar in my own room now!
this is sooooooooooooooooooooo damm song~~~~~~~~~
i rock my room, and i bet my neighbours get frustrated for that distortion sound...
hoooohooooo....
jengjengjengjeng..............
this is sooooooooooooooooooooo damm song~~~~~~~~~
i rock my room, and i bet my neighbours get frustrated for that distortion sound...
hoooohooooo....
jengjengjengjeng..............
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
U-WEAR
u wear kinda rocks... it may look so gay or stupid... but earing these shirt arround with frens kinda took alot of attention though... well nice work Daryl...
last night in the foodfair, we got all these shirts... 20 of them... and lots of other frens they say this shirt arround in foodfair.. that makes this alittle popular dont it? cant believe such idiot organization by just we frens can be so famous = =
last night in the foodfair, we got all these shirts... 20 of them... and lots of other frens they say this shirt arround in foodfair.. that makes this alittle popular dont it? cant believe such idiot organization by just we frens can be so famous = =
Sunday, August 22, 2010
2010 KcH FesT EnD
last day, go to kch fest, wif whole bunch of frens... old frens... probably 20... when talk with them... brings back memories... compared to swinburne ppl talking... they r mor rude talker, more gangsters and kit.. but jus kinda feel more logical and reasonable to talk with... somehow they r mor creative...
when i think about it, i was once who liked gangsterism stuff when i enter mid sch... i waked myself and felt irritating nor bored of this fighting everyday and quitted, and study well to enter science stream... during my form4&5 days, less troubles happen infront of my eyes and i felt somehow more peace...
now they've all still gangsters, but they didnt seem like trouble maker anymore... everyones waked once in a while eh?
tml sem2 starts... i hav bad feeling abt tis... feel like staying in my past a little longer... bt dn worry old buddies, my timetable is all packed together so im mostly free at night to hang u ppl out with :)
when i think about it, i was once who liked gangsterism stuff when i enter mid sch... i waked myself and felt irritating nor bored of this fighting everyday and quitted, and study well to enter science stream... during my form4&5 days, less troubles happen infront of my eyes and i felt somehow more peace...
now they've all still gangsters, but they didnt seem like trouble maker anymore... everyones waked once in a while eh?
tml sem2 starts... i hav bad feeling abt tis... feel like staying in my past a little longer... bt dn worry old buddies, my timetable is all packed together so im mostly free at night to hang u ppl out with :)
Saturday, August 21, 2010
WebcaM PiCs
I nvr upload pictures b4, coz im too lazy to do it... nw im juz bored a little so, i fool around with webcam :)
Friday, August 20, 2010
WebcaM
Lots of girls ask me buy a webcam... time by time, year by year...
even now i dont have a webcam, but juz now i use laptop play webcam with (somebody)
do girls really like to play this? LOL...
b4 that keep blow me to get a webcam...= =
and i kinda foundout my face so thin LOL...
but i eat less when im young...
even now i can eat alot, but something good or strange about me is no matter how much i eat, i wont be fat, slim as forever~ = =
i can even swallow a cow...
gotta exercise more in sem2~
luckily jus now i got hide the cam b4 i change my clothes... gessh, if not im gonna be a porner = =
even now i dont have a webcam, but juz now i use laptop play webcam with (somebody)
do girls really like to play this? LOL...
b4 that keep blow me to get a webcam...= =
and i kinda foundout my face so thin LOL...
but i eat less when im young...
even now i can eat alot, but something good or strange about me is no matter how much i eat, i wont be fat, slim as forever~ = =
i can even swallow a cow...
gotta exercise more in sem2~
luckily jus now i got hide the cam b4 i change my clothes... gessh, if not im gonna be a porner = =
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
LovE & TimE
Well, for young ppl lik us... we hav lots and different category peoples...
Types of attitude and relationship in love are categorised, and so lasting relationships and problems are as well define by them...
I had a fren (cant say his name)... Lets giv a nick... "BuddyA" He once had a girlfren, for about a year... Suddenly the girl somehow keep away from him... He is a pure good man and loyalty... Due to the girl's avoidation, he just abit mad and sad, and he told his fren on facebook, and even use fouls in typing... Well, this make 1 big mistake... He didnt close the facebookchat, and somehow his girlfren log on his fb and saw the fb chat... Then suddenly avoided forever.. From my point of view, i suspect that girl use this oppotunity to make a break up...
Of coz as pure he is, he wouldnt give up... (Love his spirit) As time passes by, i hang alot with him always... He's always down... No matter how happy he is, nothing can get his stress completely done... Well, till now, i can say its ord a year... Well, he's been into a college, and no other girls go into his mind... And worse thing is, all this year, i only see him facebook stalking her profile and everything.. his ex gf even had a groom... well, zombie minded as always...
Poor guy...
Now this is "BuddyB" ... He is quite a long fren to me as well... He's quite an impatient, judgemental person... He is always good to girls and gangs who are opened minded style like st.john or scout members... He desired a girlfren as well... His 1st gf was half way done, and no news of breaking... 2nd gf, i saw her face can knw wat type of person she is... very aneh aneh style, confirmed dirty minded... Well, i did tell him abit on that..
Me: thats yr gf? the way she react to u doesnt like she accepted u as boyfren...
BuddyB: oh its ok, we were lik this...
Me: yr previous gf... u oso say the same thing = =
BuddyB: ...
Me: well, this is my phychology looks... yr 2nd gf now... she kinda abit, naughty girl, not a pure one...
BuddyB: WHAT??????
Me: Ah... nothing...
Thing always happen like this, until they realised it, i havnt got the chance to wake them until they suffered...
after SPM he went to PLKN, that time i hang alot with "BuddyA" old fren...
after PLKN buddyB is back, we hangs out and he told me he got another one... 3rd... He likes her... And they didnt seem quite a qualified or officially requested couple.. Same as previous both ex... But this is abit too front... Actually i didnt heard much of this, and i heard their phone call few times too...
Well, abt last week... He finally got a gf... a 4th 1... my god... well i think 3 years passed oredi... but i heard it, very swt... a girl knew frm meetoto... live in sabah... no physical contact, on lik this... This time i really make him serious about my talks.. i said: this type of relationship wont last long, its just 4yr pleasure... he take abit of note this time... at the same time, a case comes...
is 3rd chase him back... and really chasing him... @.@
Well, as i said, he's kinda impatient... He just on with a gf, and this old 1 came back to him... He tries so hard during plkn and he got rejected by 2 times... As i said too, he really desires a girlfren...
(Wher am i now, its not a complete story, and its soooo complicated...)
the 3rd msg to buddyB everyday... asking whether its true he got a new gf...
he said he had already...
she said whether she had a chance again? if ther is she will wait...
...
...
... (long story)
... = =
...
...
at last, she step back...
I told him, i knw he of coz has feelings for both... he shoudnt hurt his current gf now... and he shd tell her he is in a dilemma...
-old girl rejected him 2 times, but accepted in the wrong time
-new girl who hav good relationship in each other, but never physical in contact as disadvantage...
that night i counsel him until i oso like drag into his case =.=
well, its settled... his old gf no chances, coz he got 1 now...
but unwise choice, if he could juz wait a lil longer...
Back to "BuddyA" , i think that girl of his learn some lesson of mixing wrong guy or without him... finally she came back to senses a little... I was so fkin shocked to hear this... oredi years, she came back finally? without hopeless heart suddenly just got it... yet with a groom... LOL = =
they will stay in that quiet state for another year... then will get close...
A couple who quarels can be a real lover to each other... Thats how they learn to love each other... For those couple who nvr quarels, hah... last long meh? when quarel once, who knws both side got pissed,and the end of both...
same goes to a "friend" , a true friend will quarel with you... bcoz a fren u will nvr quarel with means u will always stay a distance with them... keep a distance, so realtionship will be good... but inside, not close...
Well, we must give time and space to ourselves, and also to ppl around us...
Long ago, "BuddyB" tells me about his story and i dono on his which gf...
And i said: u really desired a girlfren huh?
BuddyB: Yah.. i do...
Me: Most boys need girls, but some girls dont need boys...
BuddyB: its true, i wonder why...
Me: From ancient times, man need girl for their pleasure and for the sake of inherit the surname of his... For girls, their biggest dream is awaits a handsome wonderful nor a perfect prince to meet her in fate... A good man
Well, that is old times dont they? But now the world is modern, thinking level is deeper, wider and complicated desires... boy just want a girl to love with is it? For most girls, they can start their own world now, and most boys are impured, so they prefer to be single... or they nvr thought of wanting a boyfren...
Time passed until about last month, we chitchat abt this to counsel his prob, and we had conversations again...
BuddyB: Ooo.. Owh hows you? Someone came u had a crush on?
Me: Someone i had a crush on? =.=, I..... dont know ^^
BuddyB: wat do u mean u dont know? Do u want a girlfren in the 1st place?
Me: Eh.... To....
BuddyB: just say do u want a girlfren?
Me: ...
Its true that i cant answer that question... But all i can reply is, "Im nt sure abt it, well fate will came and time will decides"
I just wonder y it is so hard for me to answer this question?
A girlfren, chase a girl...
In my thought, if i failed, my heart will be in very very deep pain.. as im more sensitive minded...
And also, once i looked into one, i wont looks others already... And i had stronger will than "BuddyA" , so wat happens if i fall in a hopeless love?
Am i gonna be a zombie for decade?
Think about it, i do wish to have one eh? But why i couldnt say so? Single is always good... But somehow just a little lonely... So whats my purpose of wishing to have one?
BuddyB: I want a girlfren always like u predicted... One of my fren as well, he wanted a girl to care for him...
Me: (That makes a little sense)
I got it... Want a girl to care for you.. To have ur big world to share with... to open her eyes, let her see a man's dream... Someone who can understands you deeper, someone u can learn to love and sacrifice for them, understanding and appreciation of "LOVE"
But though i its not simple to get 1, and i hope if someday i got 1, i hope she is as loyal as i am... But out of that, now i still dont plan on doing anything, cant do things too harsh... Just let time change everything~ Time is such useful thing, buddyA's overcome patience of time, and he succeeded, buddyB shd learn some patience too...
As for relationships for love or friends...
For those who pissed or quarel with me before in any situations... If we could get better, overcome the pain we had once b4, and prepared for anytime and ready face our fate , i think we can get into a better relationship...Coz the world doesnt hav "eternal peace" So now I will giv our mind space and time... For those who just ended relationship in just 1 quarel or childish stuff, well sorry cant help u too much now, when i had powers to cr8 miracle i will help u someday ^^
Types of attitude and relationship in love are categorised, and so lasting relationships and problems are as well define by them...
I had a fren (cant say his name)... Lets giv a nick... "BuddyA" He once had a girlfren, for about a year... Suddenly the girl somehow keep away from him... He is a pure good man and loyalty... Due to the girl's avoidation, he just abit mad and sad, and he told his fren on facebook, and even use fouls in typing... Well, this make 1 big mistake... He didnt close the facebookchat, and somehow his girlfren log on his fb and saw the fb chat... Then suddenly avoided forever.. From my point of view, i suspect that girl use this oppotunity to make a break up...
Of coz as pure he is, he wouldnt give up... (Love his spirit) As time passes by, i hang alot with him always... He's always down... No matter how happy he is, nothing can get his stress completely done... Well, till now, i can say its ord a year... Well, he's been into a college, and no other girls go into his mind... And worse thing is, all this year, i only see him facebook stalking her profile and everything.. his ex gf even had a groom... well, zombie minded as always...
Poor guy...
Now this is "BuddyB" ... He is quite a long fren to me as well... He's quite an impatient, judgemental person... He is always good to girls and gangs who are opened minded style like st.john or scout members... He desired a girlfren as well... His 1st gf was half way done, and no news of breaking... 2nd gf, i saw her face can knw wat type of person she is... very aneh aneh style, confirmed dirty minded... Well, i did tell him abit on that..
Me: thats yr gf? the way she react to u doesnt like she accepted u as boyfren...
BuddyB: oh its ok, we were lik this...
Me: yr previous gf... u oso say the same thing = =
BuddyB: ...
Me: well, this is my phychology looks... yr 2nd gf now... she kinda abit, naughty girl, not a pure one...
BuddyB: WHAT??????
Me: Ah... nothing...
Thing always happen like this, until they realised it, i havnt got the chance to wake them until they suffered...
after SPM he went to PLKN, that time i hang alot with "BuddyA" old fren...
after PLKN buddyB is back, we hangs out and he told me he got another one... 3rd... He likes her... And they didnt seem quite a qualified or officially requested couple.. Same as previous both ex... But this is abit too front... Actually i didnt heard much of this, and i heard their phone call few times too...
Well, abt last week... He finally got a gf... a 4th 1... my god... well i think 3 years passed oredi... but i heard it, very swt... a girl knew frm meetoto... live in sabah... no physical contact, on lik this... This time i really make him serious about my talks.. i said: this type of relationship wont last long, its just 4yr pleasure... he take abit of note this time... at the same time, a case comes...
is 3rd chase him back... and really chasing him... @.@
Well, as i said, he's kinda impatient... He just on with a gf, and this old 1 came back to him... He tries so hard during plkn and he got rejected by 2 times... As i said too, he really desires a girlfren...
(Wher am i now, its not a complete story, and its soooo complicated...)
the 3rd msg to buddyB everyday... asking whether its true he got a new gf...
he said he had already...
she said whether she had a chance again? if ther is she will wait...
...
...
... (long story)
... = =
...
...
at last, she step back...
I told him, i knw he of coz has feelings for both... he shoudnt hurt his current gf now... and he shd tell her he is in a dilemma...
-old girl rejected him 2 times, but accepted in the wrong time
-new girl who hav good relationship in each other, but never physical in contact as disadvantage...
that night i counsel him until i oso like drag into his case =.=
well, its settled... his old gf no chances, coz he got 1 now...
but unwise choice, if he could juz wait a lil longer...
Back to "BuddyA" , i think that girl of his learn some lesson of mixing wrong guy or without him... finally she came back to senses a little... I was so fkin shocked to hear this... oredi years, she came back finally? without hopeless heart suddenly just got it... yet with a groom... LOL = =
they will stay in that quiet state for another year... then will get close...
A couple who quarels can be a real lover to each other... Thats how they learn to love each other... For those couple who nvr quarels, hah... last long meh? when quarel once, who knws both side got pissed,and the end of both...
same goes to a "friend" , a true friend will quarel with you... bcoz a fren u will nvr quarel with means u will always stay a distance with them... keep a distance, so realtionship will be good... but inside, not close...
Well, we must give time and space to ourselves, and also to ppl around us...
Long ago, "BuddyB" tells me about his story and i dono on his which gf...
And i said: u really desired a girlfren huh?
BuddyB: Yah.. i do...
Me: Most boys need girls, but some girls dont need boys...
BuddyB: its true, i wonder why...
Me: From ancient times, man need girl for their pleasure and for the sake of inherit the surname of his... For girls, their biggest dream is awaits a handsome wonderful nor a perfect prince to meet her in fate... A good man
Well, that is old times dont they? But now the world is modern, thinking level is deeper, wider and complicated desires... boy just want a girl to love with is it? For most girls, they can start their own world now, and most boys are impured, so they prefer to be single... or they nvr thought of wanting a boyfren...
Time passed until about last month, we chitchat abt this to counsel his prob, and we had conversations again...
BuddyB: Ooo.. Owh hows you? Someone came u had a crush on?
Me: Someone i had a crush on? =.=, I..... dont know ^^
BuddyB: wat do u mean u dont know? Do u want a girlfren in the 1st place?
Me: Eh.... To....
BuddyB: just say do u want a girlfren?
Me: ...
Its true that i cant answer that question... But all i can reply is, "Im nt sure abt it, well fate will came and time will decides"
I just wonder y it is so hard for me to answer this question?
A girlfren, chase a girl...
In my thought, if i failed, my heart will be in very very deep pain.. as im more sensitive minded...
And also, once i looked into one, i wont looks others already... And i had stronger will than "BuddyA" , so wat happens if i fall in a hopeless love?
Am i gonna be a zombie for decade?
Think about it, i do wish to have one eh? But why i couldnt say so? Single is always good... But somehow just a little lonely... So whats my purpose of wishing to have one?
BuddyB: I want a girlfren always like u predicted... One of my fren as well, he wanted a girl to care for him...
Me: (That makes a little sense)
I got it... Want a girl to care for you.. To have ur big world to share with... to open her eyes, let her see a man's dream... Someone who can understands you deeper, someone u can learn to love and sacrifice for them, understanding and appreciation of "LOVE"
But though i its not simple to get 1, and i hope if someday i got 1, i hope she is as loyal as i am... But out of that, now i still dont plan on doing anything, cant do things too harsh... Just let time change everything~ Time is such useful thing, buddyA's overcome patience of time, and he succeeded, buddyB shd learn some patience too...
As for relationships for love or friends...
For those who pissed or quarel with me before in any situations... If we could get better, overcome the pain we had once b4, and prepared for anytime and ready face our fate , i think we can get into a better relationship...Coz the world doesnt hav "eternal peace" So now I will giv our mind space and time... For those who just ended relationship in just 1 quarel or childish stuff, well sorry cant help u too much now, when i had powers to cr8 miracle i will help u someday ^^
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Soooooo tired today...
lazy describe a long story...
my snooker skills is getting bad....
gosh, im aiming skills is still perfect,
but i cant even shoot as i was a begineer...
getting sick of seeing smoke...
shoulderache on left arm.... thanks to violin...
well, i gotta say i love music...
i love once alot in piano...
now i gonna be a violinist...
now i love the violin as well...
soon, i will get a better violin, an amplifier for violin, and elec violin~
music really light up my life eh?
lazy describe a long story...
my snooker skills is getting bad....
gosh, im aiming skills is still perfect,
but i cant even shoot as i was a begineer...
getting sick of seeing smoke...
shoulderache on left arm.... thanks to violin...
well, i gotta say i love music...
i love once alot in piano...
now i gonna be a violinist...
now i love the violin as well...
soon, i will get a better violin, an amplifier for violin, and elec violin~
music really light up my life eh?
Friday, August 13, 2010
Thursday, August 12, 2010
La Corda D'oro
Well, i just found out something related to the some ppl i met in swinburne...
An amine i watched, the characters following "attitude" is almost similar to the friends i met...
Damien - Len Tsukimori
Alvin - Azuma Yunoki
Stephy - Fuyuumi Shouko
Derek - Kanazawa Hiroto
Jessie - Kazuki Hihara
Michele - Hino Kahoko
Natasha - Hino Kahoko
Charlton - Keiichi Shimizu
And it seems like im Ryotaro Tsuchiura, but i prefer Len Tsukimori better.. LOL
Well im trying to say we are just alike these characters, but nothing related to the story~
There are still more characters like Shinobu Ousaki, Aoi Kaji, Mio, Nao etc. But i dont think any others suit these characters... :)
An amine i watched, the characters following "attitude" is almost similar to the friends i met...
Damien - Len Tsukimori
Alvin - Azuma Yunoki
Stephy - Fuyuumi Shouko
Derek - Kanazawa Hiroto
Jessie - Kazuki Hihara
Michele - Hino Kahoko
Natasha - Hino Kahoko
Charlton - Keiichi Shimizu
And it seems like im Ryotaro Tsuchiura, but i prefer Len Tsukimori better.. LOL
Well im trying to say we are just alike these characters, but nothing related to the story~
There are still more characters like Shinobu Ousaki, Aoi Kaji, Mio, Nao etc. But i dont think any others suit these characters... :)
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
A DrY SiS & An OlD BuddY
This night i go out with my sis and buddy...
didnt expect alot fun... and i enjoy alot~~~
1st sis house is at muara tabuan, i checked google earth b4 i go out.. took me 10 minutes XP
so i went to tabuan jaya's BSN, but still out of service.. SOHAI noob bank...
so pick sis 1st then go beside "LOK THIAN" de BSN...
sis says her address is "Lorong 2A ........(cant spill out here, stalkers alot)" , but when i reach muara tabuan area, WTH!!! 2A?!?!? i saw 2A1A,2A1B,2A1C.....2A4D etc... walao how to find? well, find her house number 1by1 of coz... when she went in the car, she wax damm laughing lyk always... tis sis might be a little taukenio bossy, but jus dono y enjoy alot during hav fun with her even though it's stupid... well, we are at lok thain here... BSN... withdraw RM100.. btw my 2nd sem loan has arrived, wheewee~~~
then she drive my car, i lead her to korda house... frm muara tabuan to MJC... very far leh... her driving is OMG! all girls driving really scare me till my pants can wet arr... the only girl drive most steady as she was a guy is "Siaw Ping"
well, jessie improve her driving skills alot too...
hahaha, all the way to korda house i was just like half life gone... HAHA... dark ther, she affraid, but she yet dare to say the word 'ghost' at those kind of places = =, aren't she the 1 affraid? LOL...
well, go kch fest now.. my god... im just like going to kch fest everyday... well once per year, should enjoy myself more b4 it's gone... well i actually did...
i ate 4 hotdogs frm different shops... korda ate 5... jiejie ate 2... i rmb i was very hungry, hotdogs pawn my tummy... good~
oh ya, 2 funny things... when on the way to kch fest, korda is more afraid than me HAHAHA.... and i oso said to jie "i havnt been to overseas yet".. just as i said to jessie.. another thing is when in the fair, jie gets tired walking, so we find a place to sit a while... just when i saw her taking something out of her bag.. korda watching too... she actually took out..... the "female dyper"? on my 1st impression, i was "POOOOF" wana laugh and wonder why as well... and thats not it! she open it! my heart pounds thats, oi r u crazy? changing ur dypers in such public, at the same time i oso think that, aiya, its not dyper, she wouldnt take out in such place, i wonder what it is...
i ask her wat it is? she say... tissue la...
Me: oic.... i thought is the ................. (laughs)
Jie: WHAT DID U SAY?!?!?!?!? (in a acting angry emotion)
Me: ah..... nothing......
Me(whisper): hey korda, i jus now really thought she took out those...
korda: yaya, jus now i oso thought that...
Jie: what are u 2 babbling about?
Me: yr tissue packets XD
the conversation continues.... funny and we enjoy lik i havnt had these funs since i entered swinburne...
well, go to 175 now since korda nvr been ther b4... this is even my god, i came here like more often than everyday... and i was surprised both of them's reaction in the spa... jiejie tried b4 so she didnt look so bad though, korda is a bumi, and he lives somewher kampung, so he tried some b4 in some sungai...
whats wrong with u jiejie? is it funny when we calling drinks?
jie: i want peach...
waiter: sorry no more peach
me: Grape
jie: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
me: ( ??? )
korda: Apple
jie: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
me & korda: ( ??? )
me: what so funny about Grape and Apple
jie > waiter: Apple and Green Apple same right?
waiter: uhh??? ya... ?.?
jie: ok ~
me: u called apple as well = =
when drink arrived we get up frm spa and my grape looks good yummy, too bad no photo for this... korda is just apple and no unsatisfaction comments... then jie's drink, green apple... i havnt even tried my grape yet...
she taste her G.Apple and said: YUCK!! Y taste like cogate??
she tries mine b4 i even tries it, and she says, yrs r good... and she exchange our drink immediately... LOL
well, im not angry... but im relief... just that we r somekind of open that makes me feel open so that i cast some stress away...
when i taste the drink G.Apple, cogate? u sure it is cogate? oh yeah, it is cogate! Green Apple Flavour Cogate! LOL! P.S. i hope they dont really put those cogate paste in this drink... well not bad, korda said it taste good as well... HAH, funny? Grape? Apple? HAHAHAHA, i hope my other frens r ther to see this... Green Apple... aiyo.... i was laughing carefreely, completely ignore the surrounding...
(lazy to type other plenty funny stuff)
well, after that go my house... i let korda play my guitar, and let both of them play my violin too... and piano... huhu, korda told me about Alexander Rybak... i knew him... he made the best remix for "Song From A Secret Garden" i love it... even though i prefer the original version, but its 4 instrument piano,violin,harp,string.. buts alex's remis is violin and piano... the differences is melody arrangement and skill applied... the piano shows the professionalization... and the violin is better than other violin i heard, especialloy bowing and vibrato control... didnt realise korda knew this guy... he told me he knew this guy after i intro him the song "song frm a secret garden" , well actually me too... and the one intro me this song is WenJing right? she said her lil sis got play this on violin...
back to line:
we took photos, n i gonna kept it preciously moments..
even took photos of them holding my violin and guitar...
erm... suits them well, look like musician after all...
time to go home... send korda home...
on the way sending jie home, she said, didn u said u drift yr car at this place, as soon we passed by the trafficlight after boulevard...
well, yes i did alot, im sure u will be scared to half death lik u did to me if u r on this drift ride..
she said: aiya u, i oredi told u i ever sit my fren car they play here play ther... i no scare liao... u cant scare me de...
i said: u sure? wana experience some? but i will guarentee our safety...
she said:
go la... wait wat?
LOL... okie~ lets rock~
VROOOOOOOOOOOOOOM~~~~~~~~
120km/hr 45 degree turn success...
her face is horrible, she stop talking, and stunned for seconds HAHAHAHA
well, on straight road i usually can make to 160km/hr , but for turning speed reaching 80km/hr is CRAZEY~~~
i do 120km/hr in turning, anyone would had been shocked, well, only my brothers wont... HAHAHA.... when reach home, she told me, she really afraid.... hahaha...
dont worry little bigjiejie, u r home safely... and im home now also... well, i did kept my promise right?
sorry put yr life in risk but u requested it, and i've done lots of times, so no worries...
SHE's relief as well... something cast her stress away in someways i can see... Then finnally she admit her driving skills... Well, its nothing wrong actually... when i was new ot driving i wont get steady as well, even though i start learn speeding and drifting... it takes time, practises, and patients to get better...
i said: eh, dont tell ppl i actually do these crazy moves arrrgh, spoil my good boy image! HAHA
she said: good boy ka pui arr... and also u! dont simply tell ppl my driving skills arr, i knw i always kiss other ppl butt, but dont tell ppl arrr!
deal... NITE! :-)
Alexander Rybak Winner Peformance For EuRo Vision
Splendid~
He can sing and dance as well when playing violin... beautifull western music...
Fairy Tale - Alexander Rybak
didnt expect alot fun... and i enjoy alot~~~
1st sis house is at muara tabuan, i checked google earth b4 i go out.. took me 10 minutes XP
so i went to tabuan jaya's BSN, but still out of service.. SOHAI noob bank...
so pick sis 1st then go beside "LOK THIAN" de BSN...
sis says her address is "Lorong 2A ........(cant spill out here, stalkers alot)" , but when i reach muara tabuan area, WTH!!! 2A?!?!? i saw 2A1A,2A1B,2A1C.....2A4D etc... walao how to find? well, find her house number 1by1 of coz... when she went in the car, she wax damm laughing lyk always... tis sis might be a little taukenio bossy, but jus dono y enjoy alot during hav fun with her even though it's stupid... well, we are at lok thain here... BSN... withdraw RM100.. btw my 2nd sem loan has arrived, wheewee~~~
then she drive my car, i lead her to korda house... frm muara tabuan to MJC... very far leh... her driving is OMG! all girls driving really scare me till my pants can wet arr... the only girl drive most steady as she was a guy is "Siaw Ping"
well, jessie improve her driving skills alot too...
hahaha, all the way to korda house i was just like half life gone... HAHA... dark ther, she affraid, but she yet dare to say the word 'ghost' at those kind of places = =, aren't she the 1 affraid? LOL...
well, go kch fest now.. my god... im just like going to kch fest everyday... well once per year, should enjoy myself more b4 it's gone... well i actually did...
i ate 4 hotdogs frm different shops... korda ate 5... jiejie ate 2... i rmb i was very hungry, hotdogs pawn my tummy... good~
oh ya, 2 funny things... when on the way to kch fest, korda is more afraid than me HAHAHA.... and i oso said to jie "i havnt been to overseas yet".. just as i said to jessie.. another thing is when in the fair, jie gets tired walking, so we find a place to sit a while... just when i saw her taking something out of her bag.. korda watching too... she actually took out..... the "female dyper"? on my 1st impression, i was "POOOOF" wana laugh and wonder why as well... and thats not it! she open it! my heart pounds thats, oi r u crazy? changing ur dypers in such public, at the same time i oso think that, aiya, its not dyper, she wouldnt take out in such place, i wonder what it is...
i ask her wat it is? she say... tissue la...
Me: oic.... i thought is the ................. (laughs)
Jie: WHAT DID U SAY?!?!?!?!? (in a acting angry emotion)
Me: ah..... nothing......
Me(whisper): hey korda, i jus now really thought she took out those...
korda: yaya, jus now i oso thought that...
Jie: what are u 2 babbling about?
Me: yr tissue packets XD
the conversation continues.... funny and we enjoy lik i havnt had these funs since i entered swinburne...
well, go to 175 now since korda nvr been ther b4... this is even my god, i came here like more often than everyday... and i was surprised both of them's reaction in the spa... jiejie tried b4 so she didnt look so bad though, korda is a bumi, and he lives somewher kampung, so he tried some b4 in some sungai...
whats wrong with u jiejie? is it funny when we calling drinks?
jie: i want peach...
waiter: sorry no more peach
me: Grape
jie: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
me: ( ??? )
korda: Apple
jie: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
me & korda: ( ??? )
me: what so funny about Grape and Apple
jie > waiter: Apple and Green Apple same right?
waiter: uhh??? ya... ?.?
jie: ok ~
me: u called apple as well = =
when drink arrived we get up frm spa and my grape looks good yummy, too bad no photo for this... korda is just apple and no unsatisfaction comments... then jie's drink, green apple... i havnt even tried my grape yet...
she taste her G.Apple and said: YUCK!! Y taste like cogate??
she tries mine b4 i even tries it, and she says, yrs r good... and she exchange our drink immediately... LOL
well, im not angry... but im relief... just that we r somekind of open that makes me feel open so that i cast some stress away...
when i taste the drink G.Apple, cogate? u sure it is cogate? oh yeah, it is cogate! Green Apple Flavour Cogate! LOL! P.S. i hope they dont really put those cogate paste in this drink... well not bad, korda said it taste good as well... HAH, funny? Grape? Apple? HAHAHAHA, i hope my other frens r ther to see this... Green Apple... aiyo.... i was laughing carefreely, completely ignore the surrounding...
(lazy to type other plenty funny stuff)
well, after that go my house... i let korda play my guitar, and let both of them play my violin too... and piano... huhu, korda told me about Alexander Rybak... i knew him... he made the best remix for "Song From A Secret Garden" i love it... even though i prefer the original version, but its 4 instrument piano,violin,harp,string.. buts alex's remis is violin and piano... the differences is melody arrangement and skill applied... the piano shows the professionalization... and the violin is better than other violin i heard, especialloy bowing and vibrato control... didnt realise korda knew this guy... he told me he knew this guy after i intro him the song "song frm a secret garden" , well actually me too... and the one intro me this song is WenJing right? she said her lil sis got play this on violin...
back to line:
we took photos, n i gonna kept it preciously moments..
even took photos of them holding my violin and guitar...
erm... suits them well, look like musician after all...
time to go home... send korda home...
on the way sending jie home, she said, didn u said u drift yr car at this place, as soon we passed by the trafficlight after boulevard...
well, yes i did alot, im sure u will be scared to half death lik u did to me if u r on this drift ride..
she said: aiya u, i oredi told u i ever sit my fren car they play here play ther... i no scare liao... u cant scare me de...
i said: u sure? wana experience some? but i will guarentee our safety...
she said:
go la... wait wat?
LOL... okie~ lets rock~
VROOOOOOOOOOOOOOM~~~~~~~~
120km/hr 45 degree turn success...
her face is horrible, she stop talking, and stunned for seconds HAHAHAHA
well, on straight road i usually can make to 160km/hr , but for turning speed reaching 80km/hr is CRAZEY~~~
i do 120km/hr in turning, anyone would had been shocked, well, only my brothers wont... HAHAHA.... when reach home, she told me, she really afraid.... hahaha...
dont worry little bigjiejie, u r home safely... and im home now also... well, i did kept my promise right?
sorry put yr life in risk but u requested it, and i've done lots of times, so no worries...
SHE's relief as well... something cast her stress away in someways i can see... Then finnally she admit her driving skills... Well, its nothing wrong actually... when i was new ot driving i wont get steady as well, even though i start learn speeding and drifting... it takes time, practises, and patients to get better...
i said: eh, dont tell ppl i actually do these crazy moves arrrgh, spoil my good boy image! HAHA
she said: good boy ka pui arr... and also u! dont simply tell ppl my driving skills arr, i knw i always kiss other ppl butt, but dont tell ppl arrr!
deal... NITE! :-)
Alexander Rybak Winner Peformance For EuRo Vision
Splendid~
He can sing and dance as well when playing violin... beautifull western music...
Fairy Tale - Alexander Rybak
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
PsychologY
The exploration of psychology will never end...
because, 1stly, is everythin depends on situation...
and everyone is trying to think more alternatively...
and prediction, so that the answer options getting more, and un-simple...
emotions gives different expression and asnwer as well...
and also, msging and talking are just like different language and world...
talking is more reality, but harder to express deep words
msging is confirm more sweet and romantic, and think is still tickling our heart is unrealistic.. it maybe all lie, or a test...
with alternative thinking in situation makes things mazy, thats y the world is expanding...
time oso includes everything.. answers cant be concluded instantly, mostly they nid time to think of the answer... some need time to get answers...
explaning psychology thinking is hard too, its just like no language can actually resembles wat it really means, the only closes thing to explain is "example"
so, experiencing is impoprtant..
wanna be psychologist?
dont think u can learn them all... u might hav to experience them arround u, and within u~
because, 1stly, is everythin depends on situation...
and everyone is trying to think more alternatively...
and prediction, so that the answer options getting more, and un-simple...
emotions gives different expression and asnwer as well...
and also, msging and talking are just like different language and world...
talking is more reality, but harder to express deep words
msging is confirm more sweet and romantic, and think is still tickling our heart is unrealistic.. it maybe all lie, or a test...
with alternative thinking in situation makes things mazy, thats y the world is expanding...
time oso includes everything.. answers cant be concluded instantly, mostly they nid time to think of the answer... some need time to get answers...
explaning psychology thinking is hard too, its just like no language can actually resembles wat it really means, the only closes thing to explain is "example"
so, experiencing is impoprtant..
wanna be psychologist?
dont think u can learn them all... u might hav to experience them arround u, and within u~
happy happy holiday
happy happy hanging out... frenz frenz frenz...
different gangs frm frenz...
enjoy and rock alot...
drank guiness blaablaa thing...
i think better than heineken,
and i tried windston kingsize oso = =
june...
blaablaa, so lazy to write this blog nowadays...
i wonder wat can i kept my memories that somehow i cant rmb in the future...
to write in a diary is impossible, i dont lik writing, besides my hand broken b4, stamina not enuf HAHA...
goin out limteh now... ~~~~~
different gangs frm frenz...
enjoy and rock alot...
drank guiness blaablaa thing...
i think better than heineken,
and i tried windston kingsize oso = =
june...
blaablaa, so lazy to write this blog nowadays...
i wonder wat can i kept my memories that somehow i cant rmb in the future...
to write in a diary is impossible, i dont lik writing, besides my hand broken b4, stamina not enuf HAHA...
goin out limteh now... ~~~~~
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Hanging out with frens is so much fun...
differents gangs from different places and time...
it really brings back me alot memories...
all the fun and crazy we did...
and also, i enjoy music alot these holidays...
heavy metals, and playing violin...
soon im gonna buy myself maybe a handmade violin, sounds better...
and also an electric violin to play for a band or etc.
holiday keeps me damm buzy, lots of swinburne folks tell me they are boring and they even find a job.. @.@
haihhh..... old frens is always best...
differents gangs from different places and time...
it really brings back me alot memories...
all the fun and crazy we did...
and also, i enjoy music alot these holidays...
heavy metals, and playing violin...
soon im gonna buy myself maybe a handmade violin, sounds better...
and also an electric violin to play for a band or etc.
holiday keeps me damm buzy, lots of swinburne folks tell me they are boring and they even find a job.. @.@
haihhh..... old frens is always best...
Saturday, July 31, 2010
CraziesT NighT
WOW AWESOME...
SOMETIMES IN LIFE WE DID SOMETHING TO MAKE FUN... IT MAY GIVES SHOCK... BUT IT's A RELIEF~
overslept till noon...
go sch study wif ah kong...
halfway, go chilipepper eat and go my house...
i giv him try june, and giv him 1 pack of mild for free, since aaron say he is goin to throw away, so i kept them and giv to frenz LOL...
talk to ah kong abt music alot...
especially 'FF7AC'
suddenly aaron chat me fb say andy called me lots of time no ans...
ahah, sorry buzy now... byebye ah kong...
drive to ron's house...
ray, vin, dy and ron is ther...
then we all seat on ray's car to kch fest...
well i nvr go on the 1st day...
big rain... sohai...
make me all wet.. my slipper still got the baby eeekk oook eeek ookk sound...
saw ah song, ah mei and ah pin...
well, we looks lik we nvr knw ea other lol...
then rain getting bigger... pissed to walk in kch fest in such big rain...
dilidali dilidali untill we go to SCR eat...
oh ya, vin keep smoke, so smelly... yucks, i tried smoke doesnt mean i like smoke or handle smoke...
SCR:
ordering chicken rice...
1 roasted wing
1 roasted drum
1 roasted and 1 steamed breast
2 steamed breast...
and 1 roasted tie...
vin said, the chicken blaablaa
oh we dont have that chicken now...
salad chicken rice..
sorry we dont hav salad anymore..
oh? the tauge.......
oh tauge no more...
beancurd,
sorry no more...
GEEESHH~~~
black pepper chicken rice...
after meal, paid and go to padungan fair...
i buy my new wallet~ ^^
they buy all braclet LOL, well im nt interested,
that reminds me of playing IQ games like keychain...
feel like buying them.... 2bad cant find them...
then buy all typical satays, drinks, lekoh~
and my favourite - COTTON CANDY~
should have buy home some...
then walk back to shisha, was about to play shisha again lol @.@
but closed and went to 360 hotel's shisha...
another shisha LOL =.=
then we go aaron house to drive our own car...
to the place... so called, the dark place? secret base? lol... i called that "under the moonlight"
sohai got guard ther dont let us through...
secret place discovered...
well, lets wait them go home then lets go in...
fly to airport, and oh FUCK... like 20 or 30 polismen...
we park at upstairs ther but the polis ignores us... hah, we look bad enuf...
5 car so song ho... we all enjoy so much...
after a while, we going back...
MUSIC... ON~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Vroomm~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
the guard still ther =.=
and vin them still so desperate to go in...
even wan to rasuah giv him tips to go in...
wat an independant guard he was...
dont wan to keep the money.. LOL
fine lets go other place...
this time... the real fun comes...
the place is .......................
all dark... surrounded by trees, and ways and all roundabouts...
i nvr been ther b4...
well, we was ther to feel the night air and the moonlight at 1st...
but thers jus a little car pass by...
then...???
LETS KACAU THEM!! HAHA
lets plan....
5 car place in a formation...
straight! lights OFF! DARK!
and wait for a car to pass by...
oh i saw a car comming... all ready.... (mess sound)
engine start....
just when the car pass through our cars...
SPORTLLIGHTS ON! and HON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u can imagine the driver ther how shocked...
and thers more... CHASE THAT CAR!!!!
VROOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
LOCK HIM up... by
0 - Victim
@ - WE
|
@ | @ this is how we lock that driver..
i was laughing until i just like...
0 | @ cant hold the steering any long...
@ | @
yet, we all hon them together by this tone
| peep pip pip peep peep, peep~ peep~
that guy is soooo damm kolian...
i've just like havnt done crazy things lik this for years ord...
i wonder am i commiting sin?
well, after a while we did drove away...
that guy's pants was pretty sure wetten...
fun, & for pleasure... but as long thers no hurting to them its ok with me...
we not only do this to jus a car, but a few more LOL
during our formation...
all lights on and take photo!
so nice view...
haha, ron's car light like pikachu eyes HAHA
took photo (upload here someday~)
and that really makes my day...
exhasuting...
now its 3 oclock...
how late we've been... X_X
tml gonna go sch study agian for monday...
then night, i should be going to kch fest wif donald them~
wednesday afternoon is my violin replacemenet class
friday is wif xheng them...
and next saturday im going to sematan... 2day 1 night wif brothers...
and other nights will filled in fully as well, adrian...
this holiday i nvr thinking of finding a job, yet the job find me lol...
bcoz i knew im gonna be buzy... as buzy as uni life...
but thers sth different i felt abt this...
more freedom, and i hang more with my brothers, than swinburne folks...
think of it, alot swinburne ppl i've met, really haizzz sometimes...
well, thats all...
night... broz
SOMETIMES IN LIFE WE DID SOMETHING TO MAKE FUN... IT MAY GIVES SHOCK... BUT IT's A RELIEF~
overslept till noon...
go sch study wif ah kong...
halfway, go chilipepper eat and go my house...
i giv him try june, and giv him 1 pack of mild for free, since aaron say he is goin to throw away, so i kept them and giv to frenz LOL...
talk to ah kong abt music alot...
especially 'FF7AC'
suddenly aaron chat me fb say andy called me lots of time no ans...
ahah, sorry buzy now... byebye ah kong...
drive to ron's house...
ray, vin, dy and ron is ther...
then we all seat on ray's car to kch fest...
well i nvr go on the 1st day...
big rain... sohai...
make me all wet.. my slipper still got the baby eeekk oook eeek ookk sound...
saw ah song, ah mei and ah pin...
well, we looks lik we nvr knw ea other lol...
then rain getting bigger... pissed to walk in kch fest in such big rain...
dilidali dilidali untill we go to SCR eat...
oh ya, vin keep smoke, so smelly... yucks, i tried smoke doesnt mean i like smoke or handle smoke...
SCR:
ordering chicken rice...
1 roasted wing
1 roasted drum
1 roasted and 1 steamed breast
2 steamed breast...
and 1 roasted tie...
vin said, the chicken blaablaa
oh we dont have that chicken now...
salad chicken rice..
sorry we dont hav salad anymore..
oh? the tauge.......
oh tauge no more...
beancurd,
sorry no more...
GEEESHH~~~
black pepper chicken rice...
after meal, paid and go to padungan fair...
i buy my new wallet~ ^^
they buy all braclet LOL, well im nt interested,
that reminds me of playing IQ games like keychain...
feel like buying them.... 2bad cant find them...
then buy all typical satays, drinks, lekoh~
and my favourite - COTTON CANDY~
should have buy home some...
then walk back to shisha, was about to play shisha again lol @.@
but closed and went to 360 hotel's shisha...
another shisha LOL =.=
then we go aaron house to drive our own car...
to the place... so called, the dark place? secret base? lol... i called that "under the moonlight"
sohai got guard ther dont let us through...
secret place discovered...
well, lets wait them go home then lets go in...
fly to airport, and oh FUCK... like 20 or 30 polismen...
we park at upstairs ther but the polis ignores us... hah, we look bad enuf...
5 car so song ho... we all enjoy so much...
after a while, we going back...
MUSIC... ON~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Vroomm~~~~~~~~
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the guard still ther =.=
and vin them still so desperate to go in...
even wan to rasuah giv him tips to go in...
wat an independant guard he was...
dont wan to keep the money.. LOL
fine lets go other place...
this time... the real fun comes...
the place is .......................
all dark... surrounded by trees, and ways and all roundabouts...
i nvr been ther b4...
well, we was ther to feel the night air and the moonlight at 1st...
but thers jus a little car pass by...
then...???
LETS KACAU THEM!! HAHA
lets plan....
5 car place in a formation...
straight! lights OFF! DARK!
and wait for a car to pass by...
oh i saw a car comming... all ready.... (mess sound)
engine start....
just when the car pass through our cars...
SPORTLLIGHTS ON! and HON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u can imagine the driver ther how shocked...
and thers more... CHASE THAT CAR!!!!
VROOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
LOCK HIM up... by
0 - Victim
@ - WE
|
@ | @ this is how we lock that driver..
i was laughing until i just like...
0 | @ cant hold the steering any long...
@ | @
yet, we all hon them together by this tone
| peep pip pip peep peep, peep~ peep~
that guy is soooo damm kolian...
i've just like havnt done crazy things lik this for years ord...
i wonder am i commiting sin?
well, after a while we did drove away...
that guy's pants was pretty sure wetten...
fun, & for pleasure... but as long thers no hurting to them its ok with me...
we not only do this to jus a car, but a few more LOL
during our formation...
all lights on and take photo!
so nice view...
haha, ron's car light like pikachu eyes HAHA
took photo (upload here someday~)
and that really makes my day...
exhasuting...
now its 3 oclock...
how late we've been... X_X
tml gonna go sch study agian for monday...
then night, i should be going to kch fest wif donald them~
wednesday afternoon is my violin replacemenet class
friday is wif xheng them...
and next saturday im going to sematan... 2day 1 night wif brothers...
and other nights will filled in fully as well, adrian...
this holiday i nvr thinking of finding a job, yet the job find me lol...
bcoz i knew im gonna be buzy... as buzy as uni life...
but thers sth different i felt abt this...
more freedom, and i hang more with my brothers, than swinburne folks...
think of it, alot swinburne ppl i've met, really haizzz sometimes...
well, thats all...
night... broz
Friday, July 30, 2010
WhaT A DaY - SHISHA NIGHT
Wake up in the morning by my phone alarm...
Shut it went flip back to bed...
shivering under my blanket, mom is not in kuching...
no 1 close the aircon but myself...
force myself to wake up, and hurried to sch...
just on wake, stephy called me and she is oredi in sch @.@
go to sch c saw hav a tutorial for resit class...
takes 2/12 hrs but my back is stiff ord...
straight back home and watch a movie frm pps..
after that play few matches of mini game...
and met some beautiful music...
practise my violin - Suteki da Ne & Song From A Secret Garden
was abt to find adrian for a drink outside...
but brothers called me for a reunion...
enjoy this night...
Shisha night...
Imagine how brother we are,
6 person sharing 1tube for smoking...
Cheng nvr smokes, and we tried shisha...
sweet taste :)
but after a while, felt lik being hypnotised...
my head is dizzy... walk together to the padungan fair next to us...
this fair makes me feels the mood... better than kch fest mood...
buy meatballs and so on... ~~~~~~
i want to change my f'kin wallet...
and i saw alot sold ther...
am going back tml night...
but tml i nid to arrange to go sch study wif ah kong...
go to 175 for fish spa... had my dinner ther...
went to fool arround in airport...
walk arround the airprt and shout in the field...
our echoes amplified, and that feels good...
then this fun cames..
went to explore and uncover the fog of war in kuching...
nt gonna say is wher, kinda a secret...
a place which no lights can reach us...
dark ther, 1 long street with both sides jungle and field....
only the moonlight shines 8us...
andy say he love places lik this...
well, what is this feeling...
a part of a dream...
but kinda creepy...
both cars turn their bass on and play with their car lights...
dance lik crazy ppl... and strip off FUCK GAY
since am going back to padungan fair tml night,
we as well wanted to buy their food to eat ther...
who knws? we might BBQ ther...
2day?
stress?
and release?
i dn knw ^^
gonna buy a wallet soon ;)
Shut it went flip back to bed...
shivering under my blanket, mom is not in kuching...
no 1 close the aircon but myself...
force myself to wake up, and hurried to sch...
just on wake, stephy called me and she is oredi in sch @.@
go to sch c saw hav a tutorial for resit class...
takes 2/12 hrs but my back is stiff ord...
straight back home and watch a movie frm pps..
after that play few matches of mini game...
and met some beautiful music...
practise my violin - Suteki da Ne & Song From A Secret Garden
was abt to find adrian for a drink outside...
but brothers called me for a reunion...
enjoy this night...
Shisha night...
Imagine how brother we are,
6 person sharing 1tube for smoking...
Cheng nvr smokes, and we tried shisha...
sweet taste :)
but after a while, felt lik being hypnotised...
my head is dizzy... walk together to the padungan fair next to us...
this fair makes me feels the mood... better than kch fest mood...
buy meatballs and so on... ~~~~~~
i want to change my f'kin wallet...
and i saw alot sold ther...
am going back tml night...
but tml i nid to arrange to go sch study wif ah kong...
go to 175 for fish spa... had my dinner ther...
went to fool arround in airport...
walk arround the airprt and shout in the field...
our echoes amplified, and that feels good...
then this fun cames..
went to explore and uncover the fog of war in kuching...
nt gonna say is wher, kinda a secret...
a place which no lights can reach us...
dark ther, 1 long street with both sides jungle and field....
only the moonlight shines 8us...
andy say he love places lik this...
well, what is this feeling...
a part of a dream...
but kinda creepy...
both cars turn their bass on and play with their car lights...
dance lik crazy ppl... and strip off FUCK GAY
since am going back to padungan fair tml night,
we as well wanted to buy their food to eat ther...
who knws? we might BBQ ther...
2day?
stress?
and release?
i dn knw ^^
gonna buy a wallet soon ;)
Monday, July 26, 2010
WhaT Am I MadE Of ?
Wonder, what is inside me actually...
why i can hear something somebody else cant see..
see things somebody cant see...
feel things somebody cant feel...
nothing make us different actually..
we have 2 eyes...
2 ears..
a face...
5 fingers..
5 toes...
an o0o
and a soi mouth LOL
brains...
and even our heartbeats...
wonder why God can make us really so different...
Still very glad we are able to understand each other...
but, not exactly to understand...
i really hope i can create some sort of machine
to share the same feeling...
which can feel others feeling...
their innocents, sorrows...
and also...
their fantasies....(thats wat im talking abt baby)
If this world can be as fantasy as games or movies...
it would be nice to have these power to share feelings...
well, think abt it, it will nvr happen,
bcoz, this world has more corrupted minds...
it breeds war and lots of death will occur, and consumed by power...
i understand this, but if ther is one, who has the power to rule the world...
BY CREATING PEACE... it would be nice... :)
lots of sacrifice will be made...
Juz another silly imagination draw frm mind :)
nite2...
Melvin smoke in my room, and i cant tahan the smell GOSH =(
why i can hear something somebody else cant see..
see things somebody cant see...
feel things somebody cant feel...
nothing make us different actually..
we have 2 eyes...
2 ears..
a face...
5 fingers..
5 toes...
an o0o
and a soi mouth LOL
brains...
and even our heartbeats...
wonder why God can make us really so different...
Still very glad we are able to understand each other...
but, not exactly to understand...
i really hope i can create some sort of machine
to share the same feeling...
which can feel others feeling...
their innocents, sorrows...
and also...
their fantasies....(thats wat im talking abt baby)
If this world can be as fantasy as games or movies...
it would be nice to have these power to share feelings...
well, think abt it, it will nvr happen,
bcoz, this world has more corrupted minds...
it breeds war and lots of death will occur, and consumed by power...
i understand this, but if ther is one, who has the power to rule the world...
BY CREATING PEACE... it would be nice... :)
lots of sacrifice will be made...
Juz another silly imagination draw frm mind :)
nite2...
Melvin smoke in my room, and i cant tahan the smell GOSH =(
Saturday, July 24, 2010
ou ɹo puǝ
˙˙˙pǝʇuɐɹƃ ɹoɟ sƃuıɥʇ ǝʞɐʇ sʎɐʍןɐ uɐɔ ı ʞuıɥʇ ʇuop ı
¿uıɐƃɐ ǝɯ uǝʌıƃ n ʞsɐʇ ɐ sıɥʇ sı
˙˙˙ʇou ǝqʎɐɯ ɹo 'ɹǝʌo sı ʇı ǝqʎɐɯ
˙˙˙sʇɹɐʇs ǝɯıʇ ʞɹɐp ǝɥʇ ˙˙˙os ˙˙uıɐʌ uı ǝq oʇ ʇı pǝʇuɐʍ ɹǝʌǝu ʇnq ˙˙˙pǝʇsɐʍ ʇɹoɟɟǝ
"~dn uǝʌıƃ ʇou ʇǝʎ ǝdoɥ pɐs ɐ 'sǝɔǝıd ɯoɹɟ ʞɔɐq ɯǝɥʇ ƃuıpןınq ןןıʇs ʇnq 'uǝʞoɹq ʇɹɐǝɥ " : ˙˙pıɐs ı sɐ snɾ 'ʞooqǝɔɐɟ uo
¿uıɐƃɐ ǝɯ uǝʌıƃ n ʞsɐʇ ɐ sıɥʇ sı
˙˙˙ʇou ǝqʎɐɯ ɹo 'ɹǝʌo sı ʇı ǝqʎɐɯ
˙˙˙sʇɹɐʇs ǝɯıʇ ʞɹɐp ǝɥʇ ˙˙˙os ˙˙uıɐʌ uı ǝq oʇ ʇı pǝʇuɐʍ ɹǝʌǝu ʇnq ˙˙˙pǝʇsɐʍ ʇɹoɟɟǝ
"~dn uǝʌıƃ ʇou ʇǝʎ ǝdoɥ pɐs ɐ 'sǝɔǝıd ɯoɹɟ ʞɔɐq ɯǝɥʇ ƃuıpןınq ןןıʇs ʇnq 'uǝʞoɹq ʇɹɐǝɥ " : ˙˙pıɐs ı sɐ snɾ 'ʞooqǝɔɐɟ uo
Friday, July 23, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Monday, July 19, 2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
AnotheR BuzY HolidaY
HanginG ArrounD Is FuN,
Went to my old sch sukan day... saw my teachers and some younger students.. i miss my sch... miss those funs....
going to aaron's house,
and i miss his auntie too @.@
shes just like a god mother...
still caring like a mother as ever..
bunch of brothers came to my house
and hang arround in the garden...
the garden is always nice to have a talk, and rest...
we like it.... and then...
fifa... ps2.. LOL
cant believe i own them... haha i didnt play but i still better @.@
playing darts at my home too...
that makes me misses playing archery...
i wonder is ther any archery playing in kuching?
and they ate the maggie mee i bought! LOL
hah, now i seen my frens... felt like been away for 2 years d... but its just only half year... since after i left and entered swinburne, i felt like... more class than them... y do i hav this feeling?
o yeah, talk abt swinburne... let me guess...
)( english - confirm can pass (if fail still got sem2)
)( maths - couraged for passing but not HD X(
)( IT - argh, no problem
)( Context and culture - Azuar said i got 66 for exam then im ok... phewit~~~ i thought i would fail this.... huhu~~~~
)( innovation - oh this... come on... Dr. Yong, u r my only hope... i cant fail.... cant cant cant cant... very hard..... well, if i fails... i will reseat.... if not then i will retake on sem2, and i dowan to delay subjects, i will take 5 subjects in sem2 !!!
Just please let me pass this innovashit, then i can relax...
Should i take a job this holiday? i felt like resting for this holiday... even though my old goood fren owes me RM500... lend to him to pay for lost bet... coz i cant see my fren go rob or snatch others to pay these puki... my fren dont want to let his parents knw abt tis.. his hope only lies on borrowing money frm his frens, if not darkness leads him on... I dont want to see you walk to this path... this path is abit similar to my father... Juz wanted to do anything to make ppl good... So, last time my boss called me for a part-time job? i felt like, no thx... but my fren want a job to earn back the money to pay me and his other frens... i thought i was going go for this work with him during our holidays... well, i can earn money as well... but when i think about it again, hmm... i want to rest.... XD
heehee... Today, some said i look like a girl at 1st sight... O gosh, i look like a girl? then y still call me go pierce my ear? LOL, i gotta do something with my hair...
Went to my old sch sukan day... saw my teachers and some younger students.. i miss my sch... miss those funs....
going to aaron's house,
and i miss his auntie too @.@
shes just like a god mother...
still caring like a mother as ever..
bunch of brothers came to my house
and hang arround in the garden...
the garden is always nice to have a talk, and rest...
we like it.... and then...
fifa... ps2.. LOL
cant believe i own them... haha i didnt play but i still better @.@
playing darts at my home too...
that makes me misses playing archery...
i wonder is ther any archery playing in kuching?
and they ate the maggie mee i bought! LOL
hah, now i seen my frens... felt like been away for 2 years d... but its just only half year... since after i left and entered swinburne, i felt like... more class than them... y do i hav this feeling?
o yeah, talk abt swinburne... let me guess...
)( english - confirm can pass (if fail still got sem2)
)( maths - couraged for passing but not HD X(
)( IT - argh, no problem
)( Context and culture - Azuar said i got 66 for exam then im ok... phewit~~~ i thought i would fail this.... huhu~~~~
)( innovation - oh this... come on... Dr. Yong, u r my only hope... i cant fail.... cant cant cant cant... very hard..... well, if i fails... i will reseat.... if not then i will retake on sem2, and i dowan to delay subjects, i will take 5 subjects in sem2 !!!
Just please let me pass this innovashit, then i can relax...
Should i take a job this holiday? i felt like resting for this holiday... even though my old goood fren owes me RM500... lend to him to pay for lost bet... coz i cant see my fren go rob or snatch others to pay these puki... my fren dont want to let his parents knw abt tis.. his hope only lies on borrowing money frm his frens, if not darkness leads him on... I dont want to see you walk to this path... this path is abit similar to my father... Juz wanted to do anything to make ppl good... So, last time my boss called me for a part-time job? i felt like, no thx... but my fren want a job to earn back the money to pay me and his other frens... i thought i was going go for this work with him during our holidays... well, i can earn money as well... but when i think about it again, hmm... i want to rest.... XD
heehee... Today, some said i look like a girl at 1st sight... O gosh, i look like a girl? then y still call me go pierce my ear? LOL, i gotta do something with my hair...
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Is ThiS AnotheR FailurE ?
ItS ThE SamE FeeL I FelT B4,
SaW ThE NamE, GoT SomE SaD & FeaR FeeL...
ThaTs A FailurE I OncE HaD B4
WilL ThiS TimE Be A FailurE ToO?
SaW ThE NamE, GoT SomE SaD & FeaR FeeL...
ThaTs A FailurE I OncE HaD B4
WilL ThiS TimE Be A FailurE ToO?
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
DreaminG ToO MucH
Guess im dreaming too much...
too much on fantasy...
nid to prove fantasies then i have to do it :)
lik phang said..
nothing u say can impress some1,
only what u have done proves everything...
too much on fantasy...
nid to prove fantasies then i have to do it :)
lik phang said..
nothing u say can impress some1,
only what u have done proves everything...
Thursday, July 8, 2010
When i look back at those words, i realized it was referring about me.. Juz y didnt i suspected earlier?
Ever since i've been through suffering,
i always like people's attention.
But being genius never attracts,
then i always make myself stupid sometimes,
so that could give them some laughters.
Same as you, Iruka Sensei
Ever since i've been through suffering,
i always like people's attention.
But being genius never attracts,
then i always make myself stupid sometimes,
so that could give them some laughters.
Same as you, Iruka Sensei
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
1. Good frens are nice... Lov to hang arround alot... Lik to communicate each other to know more and make more relationsips...
2. Jus only a few frens are good infront of u but shoot you behind, those impostors are 2head snake... Blame you everything they done, and poison your nearest person mind as well... o0o them
Which frens are worth to mix with?
Of coz, we know the answer...
(no.2) is just a piece of shit (According to Luther Ong)
2. Jus only a few frens are good infront of u but shoot you behind, those impostors are 2head snake... Blame you everything they done, and poison your nearest person mind as well... o0o them
Which frens are worth to mix with?
Of coz, we know the answer...
(no.2) is just a piece of shit (According to Luther Ong)
Sunday, July 4, 2010
FinaL ExaM, DiE ?
English citation, i probably forgotten some...
Maths, i've segment 7 & 8 + Tupai little lecture
Innovation, im doom... gosh, whats the use of the tips... i cant even understand some...
C&C, no time for you, feeling more sick thinking of this subject
Maths, i've segment 7 & 8 + Tupai little lecture
Innovation, im doom... gosh, whats the use of the tips... i cant even understand some...
C&C, no time for you, feeling more sick thinking of this subject
Friday, July 2, 2010
Being a knight or a warrior,
emotions is always not necessary...
but actions and moves are the necessary ones...
I always survived like a knight...
But to cope with anyone we need different ways...
So, i'll try something from your word, Phang
Words are unnecessary,
emotions, actions and movements are the necessary ones...
That proves you ought to do something,
without telling others you could
emotions is always not necessary...
but actions and moves are the necessary ones...
I always survived like a knight...
But to cope with anyone we need different ways...
So, i'll try something from your word, Phang
Words are unnecessary,
emotions, actions and movements are the necessary ones...
That proves you ought to do something,
without telling others you could
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Saturday, June 26, 2010
i cannot do this anymore, God really wants me to keep to myself...
felt guilty... what i done may not be wrong, but its bad for others...
lost something, and lost someone's precious as well...
i need to do something about this... cant let bad stuff happen bcoz of me...
gosh, nowadays doing anything can be dangerous...
做人难
人难做
难做人
felt guilty... what i done may not be wrong, but its bad for others...
lost something, and lost someone's precious as well...
i need to do something about this... cant let bad stuff happen bcoz of me...
gosh, nowadays doing anything can be dangerous...
做人难
人难做
难做人
Friday, June 25, 2010
My IT is done. Felt relief... Assignments is done done done... Nid to study english and maths , and c&c a little then no prob for final exam... And inno is the only subject i need to study the most.... But today, my teacher gave us secretly, the questions and slides for last exam, she said 90% probably will be these... Thankful to have her as our teacher..
It seems the stress is over...
but something still borders me...
juz kinda felt that sem2 is not gonna be fun anymore...
getting cold and cold...
It seems the stress is over...
but something still borders me...
juz kinda felt that sem2 is not gonna be fun anymore...
getting cold and cold...
Saturday, June 19, 2010
BrotherS
Last night, having a great time with brothers....
BBQ outside of my garden...
rock the night~
cool~
feel wana hang arround with them more and more...
i miss those times....
and the food are delicious~
splendid~
well, coz i tried king size, for once in my life...
that make me blur and sleepy...
well, jus tired then...
played piano clumsily...
hahaz...
i hope on sunday i will join them on anoher BBQ...
juz go to sch to do IT... well derek is not helping much, only helping wenjing... about to call michele to go sing with us but she didnt reply my msg... jus wwat happen? she dont talk to me, and dont msg me.. is something going on? seems like she hates me... but i dont remember anything in making her upset or angry, its just she is hiding something about me... haizz, sad... derek told me he wans to sing few days ago, but i need to finish my english essay, so i told him to be on saturday...
gonna rest my eyes from contact lens, infection gonna come soon...
BBQ outside of my garden...
rock the night~
cool~
feel wana hang arround with them more and more...
i miss those times....
and the food are delicious~
splendid~
well, coz i tried king size, for once in my life...
that make me blur and sleepy...
well, jus tired then...
played piano clumsily...
hahaz...
i hope on sunday i will join them on anoher BBQ...
juz go to sch to do IT... well derek is not helping much, only helping wenjing... about to call michele to go sing with us but she didnt reply my msg... jus wwat happen? she dont talk to me, and dont msg me.. is something going on? seems like she hates me... but i dont remember anything in making her upset or angry, its just she is hiding something about me... haizz, sad... derek told me he wans to sing few days ago, but i need to finish my english essay, so i told him to be on saturday...
gonna rest my eyes from contact lens, infection gonna come soon...
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
JusT AnotheR DaY
glad to be approve by yayasan... went to my aunt Mary's place to have her sign as a witness... having talk on nickholas comfirmation stuff and stephanie's violin lessons, think of that im having 1 soon, same lecturer... i hope i can catch up her FAST! ee hee hee...
and my feelings trigger me again, to see a complete family, "un.chris an.mary nick step" together, talk talk... family talk.. talk loud talk soft...complain this and saying bad habits of kids... i.....
i wan a family....
i want a complete family....
a father
a mother
siblings doesnt matter but i got a brother....
a normal father mother brother....
from young till now....
i am happy?!
i felt happy for them, but why i dont have a real love form a family? why i dont have a parent that i can really really really count on, or to trust on? why things hav to be done and to be responsibled alone? and why experiences need to be experienced ownself and thinked by myself?
is it God? you gave me this task? i understand so much, and gone through so much sufferings? my experience need to be troubled and gained from my family instead from other people? why sacrifice my family for the sake of my learning? its a valuable lesson though, but fate decided might be sad for them?
thats y i always thought, people say: ""WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME???"" the phrase, and if it is happenned to someone else, he/she would say the same phrase... so no matter what, this happening will be to somebody... so y dont i take it? for not letting them suffer... well, if that is so... God, let me take as much sufferings as possible to help these poor people from suffering, they dont know what to do? they might lost their mind, and i rather see myself suffer than seeing all these people suffering...
Refering to these lyrics, the mankind were suffering (good music :-)
1. Promised Land (FF7 AC) Latin Translate
2. Deliver Us (Prince Of Egypt)
and my feelings trigger me again, to see a complete family, "un.chris an.mary nick step" together, talk talk... family talk.. talk loud talk soft...complain this and saying bad habits of kids... i.....
i wan a family....
i want a complete family....
a father
a mother
siblings doesnt matter but i got a brother....
a normal father mother brother....
from young till now....
i am happy?!
i felt happy for them, but why i dont have a real love form a family? why i dont have a parent that i can really really really count on, or to trust on? why things hav to be done and to be responsibled alone? and why experiences need to be experienced ownself and thinked by myself?
is it God? you gave me this task? i understand so much, and gone through so much sufferings? my experience need to be troubled and gained from my family instead from other people? why sacrifice my family for the sake of my learning? its a valuable lesson though, but fate decided might be sad for them?
thats y i always thought, people say: ""WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME???"" the phrase, and if it is happenned to someone else, he/she would say the same phrase... so no matter what, this happening will be to somebody... so y dont i take it? for not letting them suffer... well, if that is so... God, let me take as much sufferings as possible to help these poor people from suffering, they dont know what to do? they might lost their mind, and i rather see myself suffer than seeing all these people suffering...
Refering to these lyrics, the mankind were suffering (good music :-)
1. Promised Land (FF7 AC) Latin Translate
2. Deliver Us (Prince Of Egypt)
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Im not a playboy... i've seen one then thers no other target... and today don know why i think fengsui not so good... feel very bad at sch... everything seems normal, but jus dont feel normal, jessie treats me lik im not arround... actually, i also knw she is not really that type to suit me for a very close fren... lik my fren brandon, just regreted for some frens we knew long ago, even a gang b4..
still need to be glad for what i had, after all i've known by myself and the movie SHREK 4EVER, i think that should not make me down... today, im found one one of my bad habit, and i try to change it, but even the answer is not satisfactory to it, but at least i hav to... World isnt fair, is it? Well God, u know the world is not fair, but doesnt mean that we can use this as an excuse to treat ppl unfair, we should try to make the world as fair as we can right?
still need to be glad for what i had, after all i've known by myself and the movie SHREK 4EVER, i think that should not make me down... today, im found one one of my bad habit, and i try to change it, but even the answer is not satisfactory to it, but at least i hav to... World isnt fair, is it? Well God, u know the world is not fair, but doesnt mean that we can use this as an excuse to treat ppl unfair, we should try to make the world as fair as we can right?
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Friday, May 28, 2010
TraumA AgaiN
my maths... test 2... i dowan to fail...
if i fail.. i will be slow a semester..
i dowan want that...
then no more u....
pls... dont giv me that...
i wan pass all~~~~~~~~~~
if i fail.. i will be slow a semester..
i dowan want that...
then no more u....
pls... dont giv me that...
i wan pass all~~~~~~~~~~
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
My TruE PurposE
in life, i've experience lots lots of things...
human life ways... mentally and physically...
and i think im lot lot more exprience than lots of people... (not to be selfish thinking)
well, i got a fren alvin, who can understand some of them.. i can c tat he knws well..
i realised...
i wanted to be a good person. On top of that, to be happy... and to finish my own task... to me, happiness comes in 1st... healthy comes in 2nd... and i will never make MONEY comes important.. of coz it is important, but its hard to explain that... most war were created bcoz of money nowadays... thats the most foolish thg i knw.. money? just like god? pui... if everyone can think like the way i do then less war will occur... just as said "EVERYONE THINKS OF CHANGING THE WORLD, BUT NO ONE THINKS OF CHANGING HIMSELF"
i believe ther is a lot of people who can think like me.. but just too little compared to majority...
the movie "xia dao siao" is quite a good lesson.. it teaches to glad that u r healthy than u r rich... if ppl can think like that and DO like that, im hpapy for them..
but still to me, happiness comes in 1st... i dont care what path i took, as long i took the path i wanted and im happy for it... even though its a tough path.. just happy.. of coz, need to care for health as well... doesnt mean that im totally happy untill i donht care my health.. health is important too... i always wanted to advice ppl to be happy than choosing to protect their health.. sounds like teaching bad things... but sometimes spending money for abit joy is worth than use it wisely... most of them doesnt understand what im saying and protests me...
well well, that makes me walk on my world, its nothing, coz my main line is also on my own world...
i've oso realise... i've ever been a very bad person, so i can be a good person.. and im not totally holy good person, but i wan to be... the 'naruto manga 495' : naruto and evil naruto... naruto says bcoz of his evil naruto, he is able to be that strong... same goes to me... bcoz im so evil before, thats why i am able to and wanted to help and be a good person...
and also, my family big disaster.. its a total broken family... im hated by everyone when im young, back then its very very pain for a small kid to feel.. and also, my father is gone... and he is a very bad and evil person... and my mother always mention that am i gonna be him? U GONNA BE LIKE UR FATHER? my grandparents also hated me and my brother alot... i do not understand that time as well..
but sooner i found out...
and i always hated that... the innocents, are very very pity... get punished for no reason... for example like me when im young, my grandparents sees me as the son of a evil guy, they treated me very bad... and im still very young to handle things myself... but i've endure all these years, now they dont have the power to step on my head, but i bliv they got that chip buried in their mind somewher and ready to burst once i lost my temper... im just like naruto... thats y i admire naruto very much...
i hope, when i grow up... i will be a good man who wont be greed of money... and to be a father who loves their children more than a mother does... and help those who need help.. and also try the best to forgive and help them instead... and lastly, complete my secret task deep in my heart...
God gave me a hard and challenging task, bcoz there are problems, tats y i seek for answer... greater power holds greater responsibility... and greaters power breeds greater fear and hatred... it is a meaningful journey...
and i wont hurt the innocent like everyone do, i will react in my own way, and i wont react according to the questioner...
i dont have a father's love, doesnt mean that i will not give my future child love... and i am very different from eveyrone in the world, thats y im treated badly and different.. and thats y im helping those people who are different as well... they hav great nightmares of problem, and its my job to helm them, even though my suffers billion tons greater than them, but im the only one who can answer them, i dont expect some one to help me like i help those people, it is bcoz ther is no1 who were tooooooo different than me...
i will always remember my way> "MY LINE IS ALWAYS GUIDED WITH WISDOM" "AND STRENGH OF RIGHTEOUSNESS"
THERES NO SUCH THING AS 'RIGHT' OR 'WRONG' , it is only the matter of 'GOOD' OR 'BAD'
and i wander, could i be the person who can create things that is RIGHT? if i owns my world...
GOD, if you grant me powers to create miracles, what can this world be? i hardly wander, only fantasy flows out from my dream and wander for me...
human life ways... mentally and physically...
and i think im lot lot more exprience than lots of people... (not to be selfish thinking)
well, i got a fren alvin, who can understand some of them.. i can c tat he knws well..
i realised...
i wanted to be a good person. On top of that, to be happy... and to finish my own task... to me, happiness comes in 1st... healthy comes in 2nd... and i will never make MONEY comes important.. of coz it is important, but its hard to explain that... most war were created bcoz of money nowadays... thats the most foolish thg i knw.. money? just like god? pui... if everyone can think like the way i do then less war will occur... just as said "EVERYONE THINKS OF CHANGING THE WORLD, BUT NO ONE THINKS OF CHANGING HIMSELF"
i believe ther is a lot of people who can think like me.. but just too little compared to majority...
the movie "xia dao siao" is quite a good lesson.. it teaches to glad that u r healthy than u r rich... if ppl can think like that and DO like that, im hpapy for them..
but still to me, happiness comes in 1st... i dont care what path i took, as long i took the path i wanted and im happy for it... even though its a tough path.. just happy.. of coz, need to care for health as well... doesnt mean that im totally happy untill i donht care my health.. health is important too... i always wanted to advice ppl to be happy than choosing to protect their health.. sounds like teaching bad things... but sometimes spending money for abit joy is worth than use it wisely... most of them doesnt understand what im saying and protests me...
well well, that makes me walk on my world, its nothing, coz my main line is also on my own world...
i've oso realise... i've ever been a very bad person, so i can be a good person.. and im not totally holy good person, but i wan to be... the 'naruto manga 495' : naruto and evil naruto... naruto says bcoz of his evil naruto, he is able to be that strong... same goes to me... bcoz im so evil before, thats why i am able to and wanted to help and be a good person...
and also, my family big disaster.. its a total broken family... im hated by everyone when im young, back then its very very pain for a small kid to feel.. and also, my father is gone... and he is a very bad and evil person... and my mother always mention that am i gonna be him? U GONNA BE LIKE UR FATHER? my grandparents also hated me and my brother alot... i do not understand that time as well..
but sooner i found out...
and i always hated that... the innocents, are very very pity... get punished for no reason... for example like me when im young, my grandparents sees me as the son of a evil guy, they treated me very bad... and im still very young to handle things myself... but i've endure all these years, now they dont have the power to step on my head, but i bliv they got that chip buried in their mind somewher and ready to burst once i lost my temper... im just like naruto... thats y i admire naruto very much...
i hope, when i grow up... i will be a good man who wont be greed of money... and to be a father who loves their children more than a mother does... and help those who need help.. and also try the best to forgive and help them instead... and lastly, complete my secret task deep in my heart...
God gave me a hard and challenging task, bcoz there are problems, tats y i seek for answer... greater power holds greater responsibility... and greaters power breeds greater fear and hatred... it is a meaningful journey...
and i wont hurt the innocent like everyone do, i will react in my own way, and i wont react according to the questioner...
i dont have a father's love, doesnt mean that i will not give my future child love... and i am very different from eveyrone in the world, thats y im treated badly and different.. and thats y im helping those people who are different as well... they hav great nightmares of problem, and its my job to helm them, even though my suffers billion tons greater than them, but im the only one who can answer them, i dont expect some one to help me like i help those people, it is bcoz ther is no1 who were tooooooo different than me...
i will always remember my way> "MY LINE IS ALWAYS GUIDED WITH WISDOM" "AND STRENGH OF RIGHTEOUSNESS"
THERES NO SUCH THING AS 'RIGHT' OR 'WRONG' , it is only the matter of 'GOOD' OR 'BAD'
and i wander, could i be the person who can create things that is RIGHT? if i owns my world...
GOD, if you grant me powers to create miracles, what can this world be? i hardly wander, only fantasy flows out from my dream and wander for me...
Friday, May 21, 2010
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Yesterday kinda disapointed a little, but its nothing..
today disapointed and think something too much~
lol, and my emotions goes with the music...
but its nothing actually...
saw thomas link sharing in his profile..
was amazed by the words..
even though its totally wrong to do that...
but the phrases i lik it... would i able to do that ? @_@
today disapointed and think something too much~
lol, and my emotions goes with the music...
but its nothing actually...
saw thomas link sharing in his profile..
was amazed by the words..
even though its totally wrong to do that...
but the phrases i lik it... would i able to do that ? @_@
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
HumaN
LonG WaY To SaY ThiS
abt holy...
psychology...
and the reasons of war...
how to teach ppl? and i didnt even got an image to teach ppl..?
how to even explain when they doesdnt wanted to hear...
how to let them know the real value of life?
i can only start with some peoples...
even though its just a little, but this world of cases like this...
our hands are tied...
abt holy...
psychology...
and the reasons of war...
how to teach ppl? and i didnt even got an image to teach ppl..?
how to even explain when they doesdnt wanted to hear...
how to let them know the real value of life?
i can only start with some peoples...
even though its just a little, but this world of cases like this...
our hands are tied...
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Damai Trip
had a trip wif buddies, and this time it is all BOYZ~
rock, we had freedom from girls... play lik a boy...
and those releases our stress alot...
my inno havn do... tiam... gonna qiong now...
and also the question...
why does some people's love and frens were so perpendicular?
they intesects each other and goes off their own way... how to join them up?
rock, we had freedom from girls... play lik a boy...
and those releases our stress alot...
my inno havn do... tiam... gonna qiong now...
and also the question...
why does some people's love and frens were so perpendicular?
they intesects each other and goes off their own way... how to join them up?
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
SalT
Today alot salt! haha!! wakakakaka
guitar guitar
learn instrument learn instrument
nugget nugget
hpcredit hpcredit
not gonna be home not gonna be home
big and small (in other words)
ate salt in mcd as well...
tml gonna up to damai?
watchi say?
yeah~
guitar guitar
learn instrument learn instrument
nugget nugget
hpcredit hpcredit
not gonna be home not gonna be home
big and small (in other words)
ate salt in mcd as well...
tml gonna up to damai?
watchi say?
yeah~
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Monday, May 10, 2010
EhEhEhEhE
Its gettinG funny....
laughing now, typing the way...
problems arround me really happen step by step... doesnt comes in all at once... i really thanked things happen step by step...
HAHA....... 1by1, 1by1, really makes things longer... makes my story longer.... and its good to let me face them 1by1...
but the prob is, no peace at all D:
all the time got prob, but still good, 1by1...
after these 2 things over,
WHOS NEXT? LOL
oh ya, forgot i got a task also, when should i make my move?
laughing now, typing the way...
problems arround me really happen step by step... doesnt comes in all at once... i really thanked things happen step by step...
HAHA....... 1by1, 1by1, really makes things longer... makes my story longer.... and its good to let me face them 1by1...
but the prob is, no peace at all D:
all the time got prob, but still good, 1by1...
after these 2 things over,
WHOS NEXT? LOL
oh ya, forgot i got a task also, when should i make my move?
Saturday, May 8, 2010
WhaT NoW ?
KindA BorinG YesterdaY,
FelT DisapointeD, BuT I ThinK I AlsO ThinK ToO MucH
AnD AlsO, FurtheR FeelinG
AlwayS HopE To PocesS ThE PoweR Of SharingaN
To ReaD OtherS MinD, WhaT Do TheY FeeL ?
ArE We ThaT ClosE? Or It WasN ThE AlL timE?
GosH, I NeeD An AnsweR Of ThiS
If NoT, GonnA SeeK FoR It
FelT DisapointeD, BuT I ThinK I AlsO ThinK ToO MucH
AnD AlsO, FurtheR FeelinG
AlwayS HopE To PocesS ThE PoweR Of SharingaN
To ReaD OtherS MinD, WhaT Do TheY FeeL ?
ArE We ThaT ClosE? Or It WasN ThE AlL timE?
GosH, I NeeD An AnsweR Of ThiS
If NoT, GonnA SeeK FoR It
Friday, May 7, 2010
Thursday, May 6, 2010
At LeasT
at least.....
problems come 1by1 again and again... luckily not all at once...
i gotta work hard yet still enjoy lik shiat.... design i not simple as i think lol?
I gotta feeling we r falling apart, but slightly now... how to stop it? Gonna sxxxd mxxe txxe wxxh u? Im gxxxxxg jxxxxxs of axxxn oso...
writting words in "xxxx" form, coz i think this blog is not private anymor... X_X
problems come 1by1 again and again... luckily not all at once...
i gotta work hard yet still enjoy lik shiat.... design i not simple as i think lol?
I gotta feeling we r falling apart, but slightly now... how to stop it? Gonna sxxxd mxxe txxe wxxh u? Im gxxxxxg jxxxxxs of axxxn oso...
writting words in "xxxx" form, coz i think this blog is not private anymor... X_X
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
RocK & ShiT
Step by step in progress~ Y dont i just admit?
And sth wrg with these ppl, they think me other way oredi...
hah, fine... even though they act normal...
is it time? i think no.... just a little bit longer X)
And sth wrg with these ppl, they think me other way oredi...
hah, fine... even though they act normal...
is it time? i think no.... just a little bit longer X)
Monday, May 3, 2010
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Fine
goes to the beach, its boring.... so less ppl go...
go home.. received an email from HON,
retailing is coming soon... on the mid of may...
then we gonna purchase an account?
i think so, i still think i rather spend that money... just once for all..
& played a match, even match battle till last i pawn them... still the top killer and least death^^
tryin to enjoy while we can b4 open beta has became online...
no fair.... close beta for so mny years, yet open beta for few months nia... open beta should be for more years~~
bah, no news for tonight steamboat dinner with class..
rather stay home, but go accompany with michele and others in other steamboat @@
then go for movie... so many pigs in spring.... the only available movie is 12.45, well i can, but some cannot... still oso veli tiring~ had drink in issabella cafe.. nice frenship chit-chating ther...
Gonna split out someday as well. No use resisiting.
Hah, i oredi knw they knw, my psychology thinking skills were not bad there...
go home.. received an email from HON,
retailing is coming soon... on the mid of may...
then we gonna purchase an account?
i think so, i still think i rather spend that money... just once for all..
& played a match, even match battle till last i pawn them... still the top killer and least death^^
tryin to enjoy while we can b4 open beta has became online...
no fair.... close beta for so mny years, yet open beta for few months nia... open beta should be for more years~~
bah, no news for tonight steamboat dinner with class..
rather stay home, but go accompany with michele and others in other steamboat @@
then go for movie... so many pigs in spring.... the only available movie is 12.45, well i can, but some cannot... still oso veli tiring~ had drink in issabella cafe.. nice frenship chit-chating ther...
Gonna split out someday as well. No use resisiting.
Hah, i oredi knw they knw, my psychology thinking skills were not bad there...
Friday, April 30, 2010
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
FallinG YoU ?
another happy day 8 sch... no C&C class tis week... hanging arround... the english article is so stress... gosh, still hav time blogging here... happy to be together... glad it... but our activity kinda abit boring... play cards fool them arround... @.@ but still, i must still cherish wat i hav now... tis is wat God gave me, & it is considered a happy n good life now, although challenging... swim at nite at jessie's place... happy happy limteh at 101... wondering 2ml's activity... gosh that michele wan me to cut hair.... hope they wont persuade me... and we go sing K~!
wat can i say? YEAH~
and i realised today... falling you? it seems already, but when i think about it.. it really gets deep...
wat can i say again? IM GETTING BLIND ;)
wat can i say? YEAH~
and i realised today... falling you? it seems already, but when i think about it.. it really gets deep...
wat can i say again? IM GETTING BLIND ;)
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
A BlanK SpacE In A SentencE
Mising you makes my day abit wierd... i gotta admit it... just dont know why...
Psychology spreads~
Psychology spreads~
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