frens is not a simple word. its very complicated... and it is deep and feelingfull as well as 'love'.. Love is also part of Frens..
different kind of ppl hav different kind of relationship of frenz... its just how we manipulate them when we mixing each other..
jessie, u may not see this.. but i guarentee u today its just a prank.. even though its just a prank, but we do feel abit bitter.. and i knw both sides are misunderstooding... it is always helpless when cases like this, even they knwon, but still act strong to fight until 1side gives up.. but luckily we are not serious case... and also u and we ppl just saying things behind ea other.. yes i can read ur ppls mind.. ur mind tells me that i have other frens so im doesnt need u ppl more and more... yes indeed u ppl will have that feeling, even on the other side will also have.. but its wrong & correct. u r correct that im starting no need u ppl, its naturally bcoz im join gangs that will still last longer in future and same class after all.. but... i still always wanted to keep in touch with u ppl... i dont wanted to lose you... i bliv alvin and others wont had that REALLY wicked thinking..
when u send us about that g9 msg and u misses us when u gone to ur trip, other may think that u r just emo or in good mood etc... and u also mayb think others think you the same way, but of coz u will still send to at least show ur feeling... i understand what u r thinking.. u must have seen something triggers you thoughts about frens, so u would suddenly feel wanted to appreciate yr current frens now... i had those feelings b4 lots lots of time, now i understand, so im also TRYING THE HELL BEST to have the best relationship wif everyone... im glad u express it...
And, God must have gave u a task/experience.. on the next day these things happened.. haha luckily its just prank... although alvin & damien pranked abit too rough, i can see yr reaction is soo sensitive and fast... & u endured ur tears better than i do... gosh, how can i be a man.. they even recorded video... if u watched the video, i think u would hav cry more and more.. u only get rejected calls and see those unhappy face(act) from them, and cry like 'ain shit' , i gotta say: i like you... u have strong & sensitive sense... better feelings towards you from everyone now... trust me...
i heard yr probs wif parents... yeah yeah lots of us had that nowadays too... gone out too often... i knw everybody can suppress their parent probs when they are wif their frens... but for u, in the meantime, both sides X_X
hard for you... it maybe ok for a man to taste this... but for girls lik u who endured & reacted like this... im very very impressed..
from my psychological look to you, i always knw u are a good girl even though ur mind has been drag to the lowest to kill or murder.. but u are always back to the goodside, u can be save back to the goodside easily... so afterall i can say u r a good girl... but, u r better than that... wow this reaction... what i expect you attitude is correct, but in a ratio of limit i thought is 10... but u shown out 15... higher than my expectation..
even like me.. i gotta say im a man who cries.. And i dono whether i can endure from crying when im sentimentalled... and i wanted to say: "i love you" , & especially to all my frens... but i cant even say or type it out... its not a "girlfren loving"... its more like a "family loving"... just wanted to show appreciation... coz im experienced like you now... but its crazy & wierd to express the word "i love you" , even though u explained to them, they may hav a yeee feel even though they understood... so the best chance is when something happened... and i got this chance to say... but i dont think u ppl would read my blog XD... its quiet here... lik it~
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